Monday, July 13, 2009

Do you know,how much i misses the past..

Choudajing,how are you doing..I really missed you alot alot you know.I dont know whats gonna happen.But as i've said,no matter where we will be next time kosipei always loves you,needs you and misses you lots.

Yesterday joyjoy messaged me,she scared me yeah.But now she's alright,hopefully she is fine luhs(:

I really miss everything,really really.I have alot to say,but dont know how to express it out.I just miss everything,from feb till now really everything changed alot.Although your inside,you know i wouldnt forget you yeahs.Iloveyou,imissyou&ineedyou!

And i've changed my blogskin like finally :P

Baby,aint our memories way too beautiful?Its way too sweet,iloveyou.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Court postponed.

After everything i realised alot of things.I love my mother alotalots.Thanks for being there for me when im in my worst mood ever.And choudajing,although when im down your not here but i know if you are not in,you will be there for sure!So kosipei think positively,dont give up so easily yeah!Dajing,iloveyou&Imissyou&Ineedyou.<3

And also i thanks those who was there for me too like joy and lynn?Today met up with xiaobaby sister at her house early in the morning with joy.Although,i knew we drifted alot but peipei always love you alrights!No matter what conflicts we will be having,you will never be forgotten.And today,for so long since i hugged felicia tham!<3
Yeah,i promise no matter what,you will never be forgotten alrights!Yeah,i knew you feel the last time peipei is not there anymore..And yeah,im not that cheerful want anymore,but i still love you mahs!Loves(:

Joyjoy,thanks alot for being there alright.Really,i appreciate it alot for how you helped me with talking to my mum.And everything you done for me,how you never given up on me!Thanks alot sister,really.I dont know how to express my thank-fulness but really iloveyou!<3
Lynn chang,thanks for you helping me talk to my mum too alright!And all this while when you were there for me,thanks alot!I love your laas!

When im in my worst mood,at least im not alone.
Thanks everyone!For your,for myself or even for my boyfriend i promise i will try my best to be strong yeahs!

Buck up kosipei!I know you can(:Think for those who really care,they aint giving up so promise them dont disappoint them yeah.I really had alot to say,cannot finish luhs too much to say already.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Baby,it extended to one year didnt it?Choudajing../<3

Why everything turns to be the other way round,im fucking tired of everything okay.Seriously,i went visiting you,and you look surprised?!Do you know,i really love you.But guess when you come out,im already inside and not outside anymore.Cannot be with you anymore right..

Baby,you must really takecare,dont repeat the same mistakes anymore alright.Kosipei will always love you,no matter wheather im inside or outside alright..Baby,your the first and will be the last that makes my world go round and round.Baby,i wrote letter for you,but guess when you see this letter im already inside bahs!I did something wrong,and losing everything outside including you is the consequences. I promise i will wait for you,but now i cant.

Although so,baby dont give up.Faster do finish your 8 more months,maybe you should just find a better girl then me that can be there for you and not make you suffer like how you will be next time right.Baby,i really cant bare to bade goodbye so even if im going in,im not going to bade goodbye to you until you wants to.Seriously,one letter cannot fills everything that i wants to say yeah.Fugging hell,i want to say so much.But cannot,not anymore yeah.Baby,you must really stay strong.I know you have a kind heart,thats why now your in.No matter how other people thinks about you or whatever,kosipei always thinks that choudajing is a good good and nice nice guy yeah!

Baby,just maybe a few more days im not gonna be there for you anymore yeah.Although so,baby must stay strong!Your parents loves you,norman and co also will be there for you yeah!Must know how to think already,dont always stands for other people and forget about yourself alright!We do worry about you very much,at least when i visited you i saw you doing well.Im happy enough already.Baby,we got alot of memories,didnt we?!

We had lots of undone promises right?I dont know if by the time i come out we still have chance to fulfill everything,but do remember me alright.Cause i swear upon god,i will remember you choudajing!No matter whatever outcome it will be yeah./<3love,i>

Yesterday,went to jurong east mrt station to meet up with boyfriend's dad.His dad,was super cute and nice luh!And then after that,went to coffee shop to have our breakfast.And then went visiting boyfriend.Although i went there,i recieved a big bad news.But then at least i can get to see you,and knows that your doing well inside..Seriously,love i miss you lahs!

Sherilynkungmunyee./<3

tomorrow you will be in..And both of us knows that we may not have any chances outside this year anymore.But theres always tomorrow,although i cant bare to let go of anything and everything..This is our consequences,we get ourself to so..

But promise me,lead a new life yeah..Who will wants to lose all freedom?Who will wants to lose everything outside aye?!Nobody right..I dont know,without all of you loves want how im gonna live.But soon,i also leaving my loves wants.

Everything we do,theres a consequence.And yeah,everything is selfish.Kungmunyee,lead a new life alright.Kosipei will always remember our,good or even bad memories.Hope you will love yourself more yeah,dont cause of anything then be stupid.

Seriously,now the closest to me that is outside is you already.Everytime will be there for me,its you.But very soon we are losing ourself.Veryvery soon right..How i wish,time could turn back.I can exchange my whole life for you,for datou and for ivan!Can take my whole life,just to not let your in.But i know its impossible..):'I dont care how people will say about you,i know how you are jiu enough already alright.From the day we get our that stupid case,we dint lead a day happy right.You always trying to think positively,but in the end it turns up this way.Kungmunyee,no matter what that is going to happen i will always be there through it with you..

Lynn chang/<3

We became very close didnt we?Although maybe very soon i cant be with you anymore.But must always stay strong,im the only one who knows your top secret!Haha,thanks alot for everything.I realised,you really understands how i feel.And your always there,you can even nearly cry when you knows what is happening and heard me cry!Thanks alot,i really am very glad that i know you!

Lastly,

to my dearest family members.I know you guys will always be there for me,yeah?I really feel regret for what i have done that hurt you guys so much.But then,the most important is i realise my mistakes yeahs.

My mummy is the best out of all,whenever i cry she will be there.Thanks alot mum.Maybe communication breakdown causes all these.Although so,at least we are better now aint we?I really hope,your will takecare.I dont know if i go in,how are you guys gonna live..But maybe you all will lead a better life without a troublemaker like me yeah!

I still cant bare to let go of everything outside,maybe i just need time to adapt..I saying until like i gonna die!LOL,But seriously my heart is bleeding.Heartbreaks is worst than heartpains!Its bleeding like never before.

Blogger is sucha bitch,couldnt upload photos O:

And yeah,on felicia's birthday supposingly going to xiaobaby sister's house.But in the end mum insisted me going home,so went home.And then contacted with lynn,as i know her freedom is limited so i decided to run out after mum slept and then went meeting lynn and co to celebrate felicia's birthday.Went to och,and then i dint want to go in.As it will only rewinds me all those memories with tou..

Really,although its a eerie place,but thats the place me and tou's first day and celebrated valentines together there.So decided not to go in,cause im scared that i may cry..So stayed outside with lynn and fel.[;

then after everything,went era to audi!(:And then around 11 plus went home with lynn.She came my house awhile,chitchatted and then i fall asleep.She woke me up at 1 plus saying she is going to go home.So yeah,went back to sleep.And then went to kfc to get my kfc meal.Seriously nowadays kentaky fried chicken is deproving luh!I swear genting wants will be much more nicer luhs!

Cried for the whole two days..One day,so many things happened.How these things expect me to solve?!Im just a 15 year old girl ley,but nevermind.Afterall,i have to find ways to solve everything what!(:

Friday, June 26, 2009

I have alot to say,but should keep it inside yeah!


Everything wents the other way round,didnt it?Haha,everything is just a trick!Nothing is going well,everything that is happening it aint something good.Everything is a problem for me,seriously.Should i go back school and study even though i knows that going back school wouldnt stands a higher chance?!But i really have no heart to study,but all the officers for all my cases told me,if i go back school maybe they will consider to help me write good things on my statement.Aiyah,but everything is already done what,only hope they will not charge me.This is one of the problem,another want is about me and my boyfriend and then still got more.Those misunderstandings?Those family problems,friendship?Gosh,everything is killing me..

Seems to be like,this fugging year fugging sucks?Yeah,it sucks to the fugging core!Anyway had a chat yesterday with my dearest lynn chang!Thanks for being there to make me smiles,i love you so damn fugging much!And please,dont be so stupid already alright!Yeah,although must forgive and forget but must also learn how to accept and most importantly for you reject!And anyway,ahsiao that prata boy who kept asking people's stomach want how many hole was also inside the conference!We had a real funny chat,i knew lynn's 2 top secret!One was super funny,and one was super shocking!LOL,and then ah siao claims that we two girls kept irratate him so he went to ask botak[brother] to call in conference!And then after botak called,me and lynn dint get a chance to talk,because both of them was super noisy and busy gay-ing with each other,and alisaba with each other! o.o,LOL!And then due to never talk for too long,me ko peipei fall asleep!LOL,and then mum went in my room to take the phone and hang,so sorry the 3 of your!(:

And before talking to lynn,had a chat with gohjinfa that idiotic brother of mine!He loves to slang his malayu with me uh?!And his chinese,needs some improvement lahs!(:

LOL,okay and then right before that i was talking to joy about some idiot which all of us dont like!And then she's one of them who knows what totally happened!And thanks for everything you did sister!Seriously,your post is super touching uh,i wouldnt make you disappointed anymore yeah!Cause,I {L} you loads!

Anyway,today my mum was nice to buy me some cheese bread and some fishball noodles!Haha,and then she went out.I already ate so much in the morning,and then when she's coming back she still can ask me want to eat the fried fish noodle not!Haha,i got a feeling she wants to make me fat!Haha,anyway me and her bonding is getting better again..Hope everything will go fine for us yeah mummy!I love you{L}

Anyway,i found some photos which shows me like around one month ago?!I uploaded in com so long,but no chance for me to upload,so here it comes!(:Look at the first picture below,the person's butt is so fugging extra yeah!LOL >.<

I miss all those past when we hold our hands tight,and how you promised me that you wouldnt let go unless i want to.But im still worrying,isiit true?! }:'Aint us so sweet once before you went in?Aint no stress before..

Baby,the way you made my world around..):' There isnt anymore laughters,theres only hatred in my life right now after the 2nd of march!To me,i wouldnt want to make anyone sad,but only allow me to go through it not anybody who really loves me!Thanks for everything love,anyway stupid sherilyn be good already,your mother is worried for you dear!Supposingly yesterday should go parsiris to find drea they all,but too bad i have got no cash with me.How saddening uh,but actually staying at home is not that bad too.School holidays is going to end in like another 2 days!So fast time flys,should I or shouldnt I?'}:

Sometimes,its wrong to walk away although we might think its over?But seriously,im tired of holding on to everything its just a matter of i couldnt let go isnt it that way?!

IVANLIEW,im so happy when i heard you are doing well inside yeah!And i promise i will wait for you,i dont care im so gonna write many many letters for you.And stupid currypuff,make sure if i go in you will wait for me too idiot!All of us miss you currypuff,Faster faster time faster fly yeah!Everybody is waiting for that idiot ivan's return!(:

{LOVES}

We took this photo with a cute banana background at iluma!Haha,Im at the first want counting from the left yeah!Haha,That day was a tiring day,but was a happy day too.because finally we met up altogether yeah,and after that went for seesha!Xiaobaby sis,was making funny actions lahs!Haha,and then after seesha,went to mos burger at first dint saw boonkiat and then after that saw him went to talk to him he spare me one stick of malboro lights!(:And then,i told him he changed alot,and fugging hell he told me that i saw him but step one dint see him.But at first i really dint what idiot!And please you stupid tanboonkiat faster go home now!Lynn and me is super worried for you ass,why are you breaching your probation again leyzxzx,Fugging ass see this post or whatever faster contact lynn or me!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009



i seriously need you to come out,i want to share all my things with you):'
You know how much i fucking miss you my datou..If you guys were in my shoes,you will eventually understand..
But then,somehow cause of some stupid MISUNDERSTANDINGS,you guys,dont even bother to come clarify things with me and the things that you guys heard is totally different from what really happened!Whatever,just cause of this stupid idiot misunderstanding,And i wont even think its worth it,KNOW HOW MUCH YOU GUYS HAVE CHANGE ANOT?!Yes,somehow i was being playful but did i done anything wrong towards him?!PLEASE DONT HEAR ONE SIDE STORY!

I WILL APPRECIATE THAT!!!











Sunday, June 14, 2009

18 months,they are playing a trick on us!



Ivanliewzhengkang,when nobody trust me,you did.This time round its my turn.


Haha,currypuff guess this world is playing a trick on us.My dearest currypuff,how we used to promise each other we wouldnt be in trouble?I still remembered at your court sentence,you told me it would only be 3 weeks.And why it fucking turns out to be a one year and six months?Currypuff,can you tell me how you want us to live without all your nonsense for so long?You remembered how we used to laugh at each other funny actions and nonsense?Remembered how you stands for me when i get caught when nobody believes me?Your the first want,who is so worried for me,the first want who wants to get me out of all troubles..Now,i cant even help you in any..any of these troubles.Am i seriously that useless?Currypuff,its 18 months you know..Its not 18 days ley,its 18 months.I seriously dont know,when you come out can you still see me outside..But if i can,i will wait for you my dearest closest brother.Those days,we had our rubbish together,nobody could replace..


Only you,get super angry when i get into troubles,get super worried..But now what?For the first sentence,you told me its only 3 weeks?Why after 3 weeks i planned to tell you everything in my heart,now i cant?Just cause of your fugging po,who accused that you lied.All of us that is close to you,should know that you wont lie cause we know that you will very much wants to come out and enjoy with us.HAHA,I tell you the fugging po and lawyer of yours is seriously unfair cause even if you lied,you wouldnt cry out so loud and say you DINT!And even cried and look at us,HAHA i fugging want to laugh at your po and lawyer when they look at us cry luh cause they are accusing you and yet they can tell your mother is you dont know how to learn from mistakes!Everybody needs many chances in life what,i believe if one day they will be like you then they will know la!They are the ones who made till everybody tearing and they still have the cheeks to see us cry.And the lawyer still can raise his voice at your mother when your mother is just trying to help you.Yeah,rubbish luh!


Remember,all those days which we could use both of our laughters to cover everything?But now,no more..It only could be replaced with tears,I dont care so much im going to visit you no matter how much you dont want us to.Currypuff,i know you too well you loves to appear strong infront of everybody.But i know,you cant.Nobody could be that strong,Liewzhengkang we all will miss you!Will fugging miss you luh..Remember,how we used to get worried for each other?How we use to share our stress?How we used to console each other,why cant everything turn back.Why cant that stupid po or lawyer see how much you have changed when everybody could see even your mother..


Once,i can make you laugh out super loud.Once,i see your real laughters,why now i can only see you cry..Im useless,sorry currypuff..Why right now,i can only see your helpless face and no more your smiles,no more your laughters?!Im sorry,very very sorry..


Jiaer sister,you get sentenced 1 month girls home 1 year hostel..Sister,behave yourself now alright..I dont want to lose anybody anymore.


Choudajing,baby it seems to be like after you went in.Everything dint went smooth for me,didnt it?Do you know how much i miss our past,how much i misses you?!):'Baby,tell me what to do will you..I feel so useless i couldnt help anybody.Maybe i should just leave every single thing behind,but i cant bare to..):'


And baby sis,i never spend more time with who now..I stay at home,for like quite long already sister.Nevermind,i know me to you is already different so its alright.Just stay happy,always i still love you.

Now,in my heart there are no more laughters..
There are only,sadness&hatred.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Jiaer,sis iloveyou(:
Sister,no matter what your sentence will be.I will always remember the days,we are so close(:And even those misunderstandings too!Because,its all our memories(:I seriously dont wish to lose you cause everybody is leaving me.Even me,im losing myself and guess i told you before right!But whatever the outcome will be,still hope we can change(:The important thing,is not the outcome or the things we do,is when we done it we realised our mistakes yeah!
Dont get hurt anymore,last long my dearest!Love you alot alot alright,If ray dare to bully you,tell me.I will smack him upside down yeah!Anything,i will still be here for you alright.Although i cant help much,but i will be here for you(:
And yeah,think its 4 more days to ivan's court review!Hope i can still go for his court!Currypuff,hope your doing fine!I miss those times we share our heart talks and those time you are the one who will always believe me!And i know,your not that strong you appear to be,cause nobody is!Hope,you will get probation,ivan the currypuff!