Memories are way too beautiful

2009-07-13T03:28:00.001-07:00

Do you know,how much i misses the past..

Choudajing,how are you doing..I really missed you alot alot you know.I dont know whats gonna happen.But as i've said,no matter where we will be next time kosipei always loves you,needs you and misses you lots.

Yesterday joyjoy messaged me,she scared me yeah.But now she's alright,hopefully she is fine luhs(:

I really miss everything,really really.I have alot to say,but dont know how to express it out.I just miss everything,from feb till now really everything changed alot.Although your inside,you know i wouldnt forget you yeahs.Iloveyou,imissyou&ineedyou!

And i've changed my blogskin like finally :P

Baby,aint our memories way too beautiful?Its way too sweet,iloveyou.

2009-07-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

Court postponed.

After everything i realised alot of things.I love my mother alotalots.Thanks for being there for me when im in my worst mood ever.And choudajing,although when im down your not here but i know if you are not in,you will be there for sure!So kosipei think positively,dont give up so easily yeah!Dajing,iloveyou&Imissyou&Ineedyou.<3

And also i thanks those who was there for me too like joy and lynn?Today met up with xiaobaby sister at her house early in the morning with joy.Although,i knew we drifted alot but peipei always love you alrights!No matter what conflicts we will be having,you will never be forgotten.And today,for so long since i hugged felicia tham!<3
Yeah,i promise no matter what,you will never be forgotten alrights!Yeah,i knew you feel the last time peipei is not there anymore..And yeah,im not that cheerful want anymore,but i still love you mahs!Loves(:

Joyjoy,thanks alot for being there alright.Really,i appreciate it alot for how you helped me with talking to my mum.And everything you done for me,how you never given up on me!Thanks alot sister,really.I dont know how to express my thank-fulness but really iloveyou!<3
Lynn chang,thanks for you helping me talk to my mum too alright!And all this while when you were there for me,thanks alot!I love your laas!

When im in my worst mood,at least im not alone.
Thanks everyone!For your,for myself or even for my boyfriend i promise i will try my best to be strong yeahs!

Buck up kosipei!I know you can(:Think for those who really care,they aint giving up so promise them dont disappoint them yeah.I really had alot to say,cannot finish luhs too much to say already.

2009-06-30T03:29:00.000-07:00

Baby,it extended to one year didnt it?Choudajing../<3

Why everything turns to be the other way round,im fucking tired of everything okay.Seriously,i went visiting you,and you look surprised?!Do you know,i really love you.But guess when you come out,im already inside and not outside anymore.Cannot be with you anymore right..

Baby,you must really takecare,dont repeat the same mistakes anymore alright.Kosipei will always love you,no matter wheather im inside or outside alright..Baby,your the first and will be the last that makes my world go round and round.Baby,i wrote letter for you,but guess when you see this letter im already inside bahs!I did something wrong,and losing everything outside including you is the consequences. I promise i will wait for you,but now i cant.

Although so,baby dont give up.Faster do finish your 8 more months,maybe you should just find a better girl then me that can be there for you and not make you suffer like how you will be next time right.Baby,i really cant bare to bade goodbye so even if im going in,im not going to bade goodbye to you until you wants to.Seriously,one letter cannot fills everything that i wants to say yeah.Fugging hell,i want to say so much.But cannot,not anymore yeah.Baby,you must really stay strong.I know you have a kind heart,thats why now your in.No matter how other people thinks about you or whatever,kosipei always thinks that choudajing is a good good and nice nice guy yeah!

Baby,just maybe a few more days im not gonna be there for you anymore yeah.Although so,baby must stay strong!Your parents loves you,norman and co also will be there for you yeah!Must know how to think already,dont always stands for other people and forget about yourself alright!We do worry about you very much,at least when i visited you i saw you doing well.Im happy enough already.Baby,we got alot of memories,didnt we?!

We had lots of undone promises right?I dont know if by the time i come out we still have chance to fulfill everything,but do remember me alright.Cause i swear upon god,i will remember you choudajing!No matter whatever outcome it will be yeah./<3love,i>

Yesterday,went to jurong east mrt station to meet up with boyfriend's dad.His dad,was super cute and nice luh!And then after that,went to coffee shop to have our breakfast.And then went visiting boyfriend.Although i went there,i recieved a big bad news.But then at least i can get to see you,and knows that your doing well inside..Seriously,love i miss you lahs!

Sherilynkungmunyee./<3

tomorrow you will be in..And both of us knows that we may not have any chances outside this year anymore.But theres always tomorrow,although i cant bare to let go of anything and everything..This is our consequences,we get ourself to so..

But promise me,lead a new life yeah..Who will wants to lose all freedom?Who will wants to lose everything outside aye?!Nobody right..I dont know,without all of you loves want how im gonna live.But soon,i also leaving my loves wants.

Everything we do,theres a consequence.And yeah,everything is selfish.Kungmunyee,lead a new life alright.Kosipei will always remember our,good or even bad memories.Hope you will love yourself more yeah,dont cause of anything then be stupid.

Seriously,now the closest to me that is outside is you already.Everytime will be there for me,its you.But very soon we are losing ourself.Veryvery soon right..How i wish,time could turn back.I can exchange my whole life for you,for datou and for ivan!Can take my whole life,just to not let your in.But i know its impossible..):'I dont care how people will say about you,i know how you are jiu enough already alright.From the day we get our that stupid case,we dint lead a day happy right.You always trying to think positively,but in the end it turns up this way.Kungmunyee,no matter what that is going to happen i will always be there through it with you..

Lynn chang/<3

We became very close didnt we?Although maybe very soon i cant be with you anymore.But must always stay strong,im the only one who knows your top secret!Haha,thanks alot for everything.I realised,you really understands how i feel.And your always there,you can even nearly cry when you knows what is happening and heard me cry!Thanks alot,i really am very glad that i know you!

Lastly,

to my dearest family members.I know you guys will always be there for me,yeah?I really feel regret for what i have done that hurt you guys so much.But then,the most important is i realise my mistakes yeahs.

My mummy is the best out of all,whenever i cry she will be there.Thanks alot mum.Maybe communication breakdown causes all these.Although so,at least we are better now aint we?I really hope,your will takecare.I dont know if i go in,how are you guys gonna live..But maybe you all will lead a better life without a troublemaker like me yeah!

I still cant bare to let go of everything outside,maybe i just need time to adapt..I saying until like i gonna die!LOL,But seriously my heart is bleeding.Heartbreaks is worst than heartpains!Its bleeding like never before.

Blogger is sucha bitch,couldnt upload photos O:

And yeah,on felicia's birthday supposingly going to xiaobaby sister's house.But in the end mum insisted me going home,so went home.And then contacted with lynn,as i know her freedom is limited so i decided to run out after mum slept and then went meeting lynn and co to celebrate felicia's birthday.Went to och,and then i dint want to go in.As it will only rewinds me all those memories with tou..

Really,although its a eerie place,but thats the place me and tou's first day and celebrated valentines together there.So decided not to go in,cause im scared that i may cry..So stayed outside with lynn and fel.[;

then after everything,went era to audi!(:And then around 11 plus went home with lynn.She came my house awhile,chitchatted and then i fall asleep.She woke me up at 1 plus saying she is going to go home.So yeah,went back to sleep.And then went to kfc to get my kfc meal.Seriously nowadays kentaky fried chicken is deproving luh!I swear genting wants will be much more nicer luhs!

Cried for the whole two days..One day,so many things happened.How these things expect me to solve?!Im just a 15 year old girl ley,but nevermind.Afterall,i have to find ways to solve everything what!(:

2009-06-26T00:19:00.000-07:00

I have alot to say,but should keep it inside yeah!

Everything wents the other way round,didnt it?Haha,everything is just a trick!Nothing is going well,everything that is happening it aint something good.Everything is a problem for me,seriously.Should i go back school and study even though i knows that going back school wouldnt stands a higher chance?!But i really have no heart to study,but all the officers for all my cases told me,if i go back school maybe they will consider to help me write good things on my statement.Aiyah,but everything is already done what,only hope they will not charge me.This is one of the problem,another want is about me and my boyfriend and then still got more.Those misunderstandings?Those family problems,friendship?Gosh,everything is killing me..

Seems to be like,this fugging year fugging sucks?Yeah,it sucks to the fugging core!Anyway had a chat yesterday with my dearest lynn chang!Thanks for being there to make me smiles,i love you so damn fugging much!And please,dont be so stupid already alright!Yeah,although must forgive and forget but must also learn how to accept and most importantly for you reject!And anyway,ahsiao that prata boy who kept asking people's stomach want how many hole was also inside the conference!We had a real funny chat,i knew lynn's 2 top secret!One was super funny,and one was super shocking!LOL,and then ah siao claims that we two girls kept irratate him so he went to ask botak[brother] to call in conference!And then after botak called,me and lynn dint get a chance to talk,because both of them was super noisy and busy gay-ing with each other,and alisaba with each other! o.o,LOL!And then due to never talk for too long,me ko peipei fall asleep!LOL,and then mum went in my room to take the phone and hang,so sorry the 3 of your!(:

And before talking to lynn,had a chat with gohjinfa that idiotic brother of mine!He loves to slang his malayu with me uh?!And his chinese,needs some improvement lahs!(:

LOL,okay and then right before that i was talking to joy about some idiot which all of us dont like!And then she's one of them who knows what totally happened!And thanks for everything you did sister!Seriously,your post is super touching uh,i wouldnt make you disappointed anymore yeah!Cause,I {L} you loads!

Anyway,today my mum was nice to buy me some cheese bread and some fishball noodles!Haha,and then she went out.I already ate so much in the morning,and then when she's coming back she still can ask me want to eat the fried fish noodle not!Haha,i got a feeling she wants to make me fat!Haha,anyway me and her bonding is getting better again..Hope everything will go fine for us yeah mummy!I love you{L}

Anyway,i found some photos which shows me like around one month ago?!I uploaded in com so long,but no chance for me to upload,so here it comes!(:Look at the first picture below,the person's butt is so fugging extra yeah!LOL >.<

I miss all those past when we hold our hands tight,and how you promised me that you wouldnt let go unless i want to.But im still worrying,isiit true?! }:'Aint us so sweet once before you went in?Aint no stress before..

Baby,the way you made my world around..):' There isnt anymore laughters,theres only hatred in my life right now after the 2nd of march!To me,i wouldnt want to make anyone sad,but only allow me to go through it not anybody who really loves me!Thanks for everything love,anyway stupid sherilyn be good already,your mother is worried for you dear!Supposingly yesterday should go parsiris to find drea they all,but too bad i have got no cash with me.How saddening uh,but actually staying at home is not that bad too.School holidays is going to end in like another 2 days!So fast time flys,should I or shouldnt I?'}:

Sometimes,its wrong to walk away although we might think its over?But seriously,im tired of holding on to everything its just a matter of i couldnt let go isnt it that way?!

IVANLIEW,im so happy when i heard you are doing well inside yeah!And i promise i will wait for you,i dont care im so gonna write many many letters for you.And stupid currypuff,make sure if i go in you will wait for me too idiot!All of us miss you currypuff,Faster faster time faster fly yeah!Everybody is waiting for that idiot ivan's return!(:

{LOVES}

We took this photo with a cute banana background at iluma!Haha,Im at the first want counting from the left yeah!Haha,That day was a tiring day,but was a happy day too.because finally we met up altogether yeah,and after that went for seesha!Xiaobaby sis,was making funny actions lahs!Haha,and then after seesha,went to mos burger at first dint saw boonkiat and then after that saw him went to talk to him he spare me one stick of malboro lights!(:And then,i told him he changed alot,and fugging hell he told me that i saw him but step one dint see him.But at first i really dint what idiot!And please you stupid tanboonkiat faster go home now!Lynn and me is super worried for you ass,why are you breaching your probation again leyzxzx,Fugging ass see this post or whatever faster contact lynn or me!

2009-06-23T18:36:00.000-07:00

i seriously need you to come out,i want to share all my things with you):'
You know how much i fucking miss you my datou..If you guys were in my shoes,you will eventually understand..
But then,somehow cause of some stupid MISUNDERSTANDINGS,you guys,dont even bother to come clarify things with me and the things that you guys heard is totally different from what really happened!Whatever,just cause of this stupid idiot misunderstanding,And i wont even think its worth it,KNOW HOW MUCH YOU GUYS HAVE CHANGE ANOT?!Yes,somehow i was being playful but did i done anything wrong towards him?!PLEASE DONT HEAR ONE SIDE STORY!

I WILL APPRECIATE THAT!!!

2009-06-14T22:56:00.000-07:00

18 months,they are playing a trick on us!

Ivanliewzhengkang,when nobody trust me,you did.This time round its my turn.

Haha,currypuff guess this world is playing a trick on us.My dearest currypuff,how we used to promise each other we wouldnt be in trouble?I still remembered at your court sentence,you told me it would only be 3 weeks.And why it fucking turns out to be a one year and six months?Currypuff,can you tell me how you want us to live without all your nonsense for so long?You remembered how we used to laugh at each other funny actions and nonsense?Remembered how you stands for me when i get caught when nobody believes me?Your the first want,who is so worried for me,the first want who wants to get me out of all troubles..Now,i cant even help you in any..any of these troubles.Am i seriously that useless?Currypuff,its 18 months you know..Its not 18 days ley,its 18 months.I seriously dont know,when you come out can you still see me outside..But if i can,i will wait for you my dearest closest brother.Those days,we had our rubbish together,nobody could replace..

Only you,get super angry when i get into troubles,get super worried..But now what?For the first sentence,you told me its only 3 weeks?Why after 3 weeks i planned to tell you everything in my heart,now i cant?Just cause of your fugging po,who accused that you lied.All of us that is close to you,should know that you wont lie cause we know that you will very much wants to come out and enjoy with us.HAHA,I tell you the fugging po and lawyer of yours is seriously unfair cause even if you lied,you wouldnt cry out so loud and say you DINT!And even cried and look at us,HAHA i fugging want to laugh at your po and lawyer when they look at us cry luh cause they are accusing you and yet they can tell your mother is you dont know how to learn from mistakes!Everybody needs many chances in life what,i believe if one day they will be like you then they will know la!They are the ones who made till everybody tearing and they still have the cheeks to see us cry.And the lawyer still can raise his voice at your mother when your mother is just trying to help you.Yeah,rubbish luh!

Remember,all those days which we could use both of our laughters to cover everything?But now,no more..It only could be replaced with tears,I dont care so much im going to visit you no matter how much you dont want us to.Currypuff,i know you too well you loves to appear strong infront of everybody.But i know,you cant.Nobody could be that strong,Liewzhengkang we all will miss you!Will fugging miss you luh..Remember,how we used to get worried for each other?How we use to share our stress?How we used to console each other,why cant everything turn back.Why cant that stupid po or lawyer see how much you have changed when everybody could see even your mother..

Once,i can make you laugh out super loud.Once,i see your real laughters,why now i can only see you cry..Im useless,sorry currypuff..Why right now,i can only see your helpless face and no more your smiles,no more your laughters?!Im sorry,very very sorry..

Jiaer sister,you get sentenced 1 month girls home 1 year hostel..Sister,behave yourself now alright..I dont want to lose anybody anymore.

Choudajing,baby it seems to be like after you went in.Everything dint went smooth for me,didnt it?Do you know how much i miss our past,how much i misses you?!):'Baby,tell me what to do will you..I feel so useless i couldnt help anybody.Maybe i should just leave every single thing behind,but i cant bare to..):'

And baby sis,i never spend more time with who now..I stay at home,for like quite long already sister.Nevermind,i know me to you is already different so its alright.Just stay happy,always i still love you.

Now,in my heart there are no more laughters..
There are only,sadness&hatred.

2009-06-10T15:44:00.000-07:00

Jiaer,sis iloveyou(:

Sister,no matter what your sentence will be.I will always remember the days,we are so close(:And even those misunderstandings too!Because,its all our memories(:I seriously dont wish to lose you cause everybody is leaving me.Even me,im losing myself and guess i told you before right!But whatever the outcome will be,still hope we can change(:The important thing,is not the outcome or the things we do,is when we done it we realised our mistakes yeah!

Dont get hurt anymore,last long my dearest!Love you alot alot alright,If ray dare to bully you,tell me.I will smack him upside down yeah!Anything,i will still be here for you alright.Although i cant help much,but i will be here for you(:

And yeah,think its 4 more days to ivan's court review!Hope i can still go for his court!Currypuff,hope your doing fine!I miss those times we share our heart talks and those time you are the one who will always believe me!And i know,your not that strong you appear to be,cause nobody is!Hope,you will get probation,ivan the currypuff!

2009-06-03T06:35:00.000-07:00

Heyyyoh,just came back from report!

And happily,the blood test results haven come yet!

so 7th june event!Whose going?should be getting tickets from cynthia!

LOL,Currently at bukit BATOK!):' Siannnn daoooo.

2009-06-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

For what i've done,i seriously regretted.Just wanting to say,i'm sorry.

Accept the facts,although it hard.I have to,with no choice.
Tomorrow will be my reporting already,wondering what might be happening.Before my baby went in,nothing like this happen.My smiles are still for real,right now.Its even hard to give one fake want.I'm sorry,about all these things.If you knew about it,you must be super disappointed for what i promised you,i dint done it.After my reporting tomorrow if nothing happen,most probably will be off to bugis with chocolate and clarissa(:

Stayed at home for the whole day,i spent the whole day sleeping.Actually,home is not a so bad place too.Want do what also can,but maybe just abit bored but overall its still alright luh!(:

Yeah,ask you continue spamming really continue spamming uh?GOOD DOGGIE!

Never did i thought,days by days im getting worst.Everything is not improving,its not i swear.And infact,everything is making me feel worst.Baby,by the day you come out.Im not sure if im still outside for you,because me myself have a high chance going in sit too.If im still outside,then its good.But if im not,then you seriously have to takecare of yourself and dont repeat the same mistakes again alright?And find a girl,who can be there for you unlike me.Baby,remember i will always remember you,our memories together.It will be kept in my heart no matter what will happen after you come out,no matter if im can still be with you its fine.Just want you to know,i will always love you no matter what.Remember,those days at your house?Those sweetest words you said to me,and even those arguements?Baby,i just love you.I just want to wait for you,but now i dont think i can anymore.Promise me,must takecare if there's no more last chance.I swear there are so much more unsaid words i want to tell you,but baby maybe those unsaid words forever it couldnt be said anymore.

I thought,i will be fine.But kosipei,just face the facts that you will not be let off so easily yeah!
Face the consequences bravely,Kosipei!Other people can,why cant you?!You can do it too.But seriously,before everything happen,aint i'm that cheerful girl?If all these things start,happily but have to end in miseries.Then i rather,everything dint started at all even if there will be no memories.Because,it not only bring hurts to myself,it hurts the both of us.Isnt it?Its hurting me,but i guess it may hurt you too.I'm sorry,maybe i was just too selfish.Because,i always do stupid things,and then end up regretting and it hurt everybody.I dint thought of how people around me who really cares will feel.It must be disappointing each and single one of you.I promise to wait for every love want that is inside,but i failed to.All these rubbish i done,seriously is nonsense!

不能在一起也沒關系
只少你懂我的心會在想你
那些回憶會永遠保持甜蜜

不管未來你會在哪里
我都不會忘記我愛你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比從前開心
♥♥

2009-05-30T11:43:00.000-07:00

Ohmygod,this few days i kept tonning continuosly till i really have no money left luh!):'

And passerbys,fucking hell keep on spamming uh!(:
Please luh,none of your the business luh asses.
Continue spamming luh doggie!

-30th may-31st may.

Went to tampines,supposingly can meet fiona.But in the end didnt):'Damn tiring,dint get a wink of sleep like for over 24 hours!And yesterday,me and sherilyn was like damn angry over an attention seeker girl!She's so annoying,we were like doing stuffs and she kept crying.But actually,i pity her much too..Hmms,anyway actually nothing much about it too.Boonkiat called me in the afternoon,and then off he went bugis.And in the night 11plus,just now he called me too.He was like giving me alot of names!There is,buy pork de aunty and many more!He is like making me laugh like fugging hell!Thanks for entertaining me stupid piggy(:

Just came home from tamp,damn tiring luh.Sherilyn is going yishun!(:Ivan liew zheng kang,its been 6 days since you are inside!Fasterfaster time,faster pass!

So boring at home , doing nothing.Goodness sake.I miss all the times when,your still around.14th is the date i will always remember.Nobody can pull me away from you dearest.

Super stress right now,3 more days..

2009-05-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

I swear i look damn cork luh!But its alright!

Oh my god,i grewed fat luh!I kept eating this few days!Eat alot alot,but dint sleep for alotalot too!Lol,i want to be on diet!Haha,yeah agreed to what boonkiat said.If will,it means will.If wouldnt,means it wouldnt.But too bad,i just dont want it to happen!

Hi teoyanling,last long yeahs.I will always love you.After a long time finally,you get who you want dint you?Treasure what your having right now,dont be like me regretting what i've done although its not link to love!Haha,But yeah,talked to drea on phone.She claims that my feeling faded,but the fact is i dint!Is just that,im seriously very stress and i have no fugging mood anymore.But i still love my dajing(:

Drea,i miss you sister!Ohgosh,how i wish i could beside you now luh!Oh,i want to tell you so many things,and is like so many fugging things!Imissyou to the fugging max!

You said i dint blog about you uh!But yeah,now in the early ,morning you must be glad i blogged about you!Yeah,hope what you said on the phone will come true.Before talking to drea on phone,im talking to TanBoonkiat!Haha!

Went on a very very long trip luh.From,bedok to redhill and then serangoon and then chocolate's house.Actually that stupid boonkiat was supposed to meet me at batok,i went down in the end he dint turn up!And he called to say sorry!Haha,alright your forgiven(:And then from batok,to bugis and then back home.Have been thinking what will happen on 3rd of june.Hope nothing will happen buh.Anyway,i kept eating at home.NAH,i cant stay at home anymore because i keep eating at home but if im outside i will not eat as at home i have too many food to eat!And its all junk food!I swear i will grow fat!So KOPEIPEI,now is the time to be on diet!Thank you very muchy!

I swear,im super regret now for what i have done.And i realised,the only people who will always be there is the ones that i disappointed the most,and its my parents.They are there with no fears whenever i get into troubles,they are always there to encourage me.I swear,i want to change for them.Im sick and tired of making them sad and seeing them cry.And what really hurts,is their broken shattered hearts.They must be more stressed than im,ko sipei you must try to understand them more alright!You must work very very hard this time round no matter what the outcome will be!

Seriously,baby tell me what to do..
Maybe,i dont have this chance to wait anymore ,
so if there isnt,you have to takecare of yourself,
remember no matter what the outcome will be.I will always love you..
Trust me,i will try my best to stay strong.

2009-05-27T07:11:00.000-07:00

Just one more last chance,i swear upon i will treasure it.

Kosipei is currently not feeling good,
slowly 7 more days to my reporting date.Im very very worried right now.
Mummy told me that if 3rd of june i have nothing happen,
She might bring me go to genting!Hooray(:So i pray hard nothing will happen!Mummy is the best(:

7th june,there's an event(:If nothing happen to me on 3rd june,i want gooooooooo(:

Liewzhengkang,hope your doing fine yeahsszxzx

CURRYPUFF!~Vanilla miss you alot,faster come out and have fun together again alrights!Sherilyn told me you were disappointed that only she went.But currypuff,i no ezlink or any identifical card):'Cant go in either,but i will make it fast so can go visit yeah!My dearest currypuff,im sorry for not visiting you as i dont have my ezlink or any identifical card with me.If i have this one more last chance for my case,i promise i will seriously wait for you.Be good inside yeah,as an elder brother whenever i get into trouble.With no fears,your always here for me.Yeah,you told me it was just 3 weeks.If only,i dint get into any troubles i will have no fears to see you in 3 weeks time,but ..Right now,i seriously dont know.If i really have just one last chance..Really,how i wish right now we still can heart to heart talk together.I really wish now i can be telling you how im feeling.I failed to help anybody,and myself.

Im sorry..Veryvery,sorry.

2 days ago,gordon called me saying he was stress of his rioting case.Its 148,not 147.But brother,whats done is already done.Just hope that you will really change after this case alright.And yeah,im very stressed too as i have too many cases.3rd of june i have to go back reporting too..And im seriously damn fugging stress.Yeah,met up with gordon to reseirvoir at around 2 plus in the middle of night?It was close to 3.Down there,i thought alot of things.Drea told me she have a feeling they will give me one more chance,i hope they will.I think of alot of things,the moment i hear the song have you ever i broke down into tears again.It really meant alot to me that song,i sang it with ivan before.And this song reminds me of everything.I miss my datou,i miss alot of things.I miss ivan my closest brother!

Gordon chen,remember.Whats done is already done,its too late to regret.But you still have the choice to see if you want to change anot,its up to you yeah!As i've said,everybody is leaving me.Another want might be you,or me myself too.But bare the consequences bravely brother!

To passerby,weather is my boy-f fat i dont think you should care so much as its none of your business?(:If you want,continue tagging as i dont give a damn.

2009-05-25T09:25:00.000-07:00

Currypuff,must really takecare..

Today morning went for ivan's court.Supposingly wanted to give him some surprise,but cause went to check for boonkiats court and we were late.And then in the end he send me this message saying he sure will go in,we ran all the way up to his court..The moment i step in,i see him i felt so helpless and i cried.He consoled me saying its just 3 weeks,must go visit him..Sigh,why is all these happening.And maybe i dont even have this chance to go your court review.When you step in the remand room,you turned back..):And i saw your face,again i felt so fugging helpless..No matter what i will wait,remember those days we sing together the song have you ever??Remember days when i get caught,how worried you was for me till you dint really get to sleep?!I hope you will be ok inside.After this,please learn your lessons as i've already learnt..):'Dont make me worry already alright.You should know,my boyfriend,my close friends are all inside.Now is your turn..):'Currypuff,remember must really takecare of yourself alright!But currypuff,at least i can cry infront of you.But when my boyfriend go in,i have to fugging tolerate my tears till i really burst.Right now,im crying.I will be waiting for you too,And dont worry,i will contact your mother teach your mother how to go alright!And when i get to make my ezlink,i will sure go visit you.

As an elder brother,as a close brother.Your always there for me,when i get into troubles,when nobody believes me.You did,from the bottom of my heart,i really thank you alot.You made me realise at least there is some want who will really trust me.Now is my turn,to work hard and wait for you.The moment i heard,you are going to get sentenced to qrp seriously i broke down already.Whenever i lost hopes,your always there.When i heard that is ahpui..I seriously dont want and i cant even believe is him whos the main point for how depressed im right now.Currypuff,promise me.Must really takecare,dont make me worry.And i promise,i wont get into anymore troubles again if i get one more last chance alright!I will heed to your advices,and yeah i know your not that strong that you appear to be,Nobody actually is..Ivan liew zhengkang,i promise i will be there for you!Just that now i cant,since i can wait for my boyfriend for so many months already,i can do it to wait for you too!Faster come out together wait for my boy-f alright!Nobody is that strong,neither am i.Im sorry everybody..I failed to help anyone.Your helpless face when you turned back,i broke down..

Its 3 weeks currypuff.Please currypuff,learn your lessons.We are just following people's path and this is our consequences,promise me treat your mother nicely after you come out please.She is worried alright,of cause im too..

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

I wished,there was a chance to say im sorry to everybody i loved.I failed to help anybody close to me,im sorry.Felt my heart was breaking.

Slowly,im losing all those who will be there for me.Maybe,the next might be me.But i still hope i will have the chance to wait for your to come out.I must learn to be strong,must learn to bear the consequences bravely,Stay strong,ko sipei.

Now,im still tearing..

2009-05-23T01:30:00.000-07:00

Seriously,May sucks to the fugging core luh!

Kwanbeeshi,seriously its all regrets.I know you must be super sad now.Im sorry i couldnt help much seriously..Sigh,i miss you like hell.Right now,i seriously am very shag kept thinking why all these happen.Rememeber what you promised me,face the consequences bravely!Although i couldnt be there for you anymore,but really i can imagine how much i will miss you.All these whole year,we've been through ups and downs.Quarrells,happy,sad moments.Seriously,i dont want all these to happen to you!):'But you really must takecare alrights?):'I will love you like always although we have drifted alot alot..

This few days was at outram,and yeahyeah something happened yesterday morning and it seriously scared me.May seriously is a sucky month to me!So many things happened in the way i dont want it to be or either unexpected.This year can be said so that,only the starting 2 months its great.From march till now,it seriously sucks like hell.Gosh,i cant believe 2 more days so fast its ivan's last sentence.Currypuff!Ohmygod,hope nothing will happen to you seriously.Everybody is leaving me,maybe myself to be the next.

But whats the use of thinking so much,whats done it cant be undone right.So yeah,i only have to pray hard thats all,and most importantly i want to change.Dont know since when,im like that!Seriously,i want back that last time me!):'

And yeah,supposingly yesterday after a night sentosa trip,we were going pasiris.But not too sure why we cant go there in the end.So its alright(:Yesterday,tonned at sentosa.Im like feeding bunch of mosquitoes!Went there with sherilyn,cynthia and karen.To meet sherilyn's friends.Boonkiat was there too!But i thought you got probation?Lol,monday will be your court too manzx,have to take great care(:

And yeah,add on something!I swear sentosa in the night at siloso need some torch.Its super dark,and we four girls were lost at first!And then we get on this so called ranger van,the driver was nice enough to drive us to the place we described.But in the end,we were at the wrong place.-.-So we have to walk a long way back to the 7-eleven we passed by.=.=Why sentosa got to be so big even if it can be counted as tourist attraction?!Lol

Ohgosh,baby baby imissyou):'Not that i dont want to write letters or visit you.Its because i really dont know how to send that letter to you,but rena taught me!So happy,at least i can write letters give you(:I miss you!And baby,maybe i should heed to your advice yeah.Im so stupid to have kept helping her talk.

2009-05-21T01:46:00.000-07:00

Ximgua,really thanks for understanding.I knew alot of people wont forgive me already,i really hope you will.If we have this really last chance,treasure it okay.I really dont want to go in,and i wont want see you inside too.Lets pray we will have our this very very last chance,I knew our mother really will be so heartbroken already.Although alot of people might be hating me right now,i still hope you wont.I get you into all these troubles,im sorry.

And shed tears for us so many times,this time round they must be still feeling the same.Hope the report everything will turn out to be fine buhs.I dont want to lose you too,seriously.Last time,so many misunderstandings in between us already,right now we are close.

So please please,i pray nothing will happen!I really want to wait for my toutou);'But maybe no more chance already,seriously hope nothing will happen to the both of us alright!I dont know how to express how im feeling right now,those cannot tell out the feeling really hurts.);'Seeing people around me all going in,i dont want to be that another want.And i dont want you too..):'Ximgua,remember i will always love you too alright.

Although both of us know that this time round,its very hard to get chance anymore already.I still hope we wont disappoint our mothers and people around us anymore alright.We must be making them damn worried.Yeah,agreed.Whats done couldnt be undone maybe its just our life buhs..):'Seriously,i pray so hard not to go in.If the both of us can have nothing happen i so hope that we will really change.I dont mind having probation of stuff to at least get the both of us still outside..Right now,really im feeling miserable.

Maybe,i will be meeting you today to go apply job buhs(:And remember,we have to go temple pray lei!Really,feeling damn suey this few days.May sucks,i hate may seriously.Let us pray hard we will get one more last chance alright,iloveyou.

Heartbreaking,depressed.

Peipei, Dont blame yourself !

2009-05-20T19:19:00.000-07:00

girl , sorry. i really dont wants you to think so much. lets the both of us promises okays? dont be so naughts already! It's look like our dearest mummy & daddy are worry for us. Soooooooooooooooo shag seriously.

fcuking guilty lo, mummy drop tear for me , dont know how many times already!

And ya, dont blame yourself already okays, i wont hate you one laas, because of this silly things hate you?. You crazy huh, do i look so small gas!? I then wont wants lose you!

Aiya, if really somethings , happen on both of us. we really cant do anythings de.

Its the fact seriously, and ours life.

Remember what i told you in there,

What Done Can't Be Undone , It's All Regret ):"

No matter what others say, i always be there for you okays?

Don't forget i'm always your Noisy , Stupid , Foolish EHKIA rights?

Ohya, remember must eat alots alots okays,

you're not fat la, silly girl!

KoShiPei , SherilynKungMunYee always love you.

You must be sleeping now. Dont think much.

Nights(:

2009-05-19T21:47:00.000-07:00

See this photo long ago of mine,think last year? :x So fat,haha.Okay,just went for reporting now back at home waiting for time to pass and then have to go batok to meet lynn and boonkiat and co.Gosh,so god damn farrrrrrrr.But nevermind!Today is like wednesday.I miss my sisters,i want to meet them on saturday,i miss that stupid sherilyn's nonsenseee toooo(:Haha!I want to make nuffangs ads,but sadly i cant due to some stupid reasons):'

Byeee,my lovely mum wants to use the com already,stay tune readers!

2009-05-19T03:57:00.000-07:00

It seems to be untrue.

Wtffff,so many things been happening luh..And bringing me depressed.Those bitches!All liars.Humans are so horrible luh okay.

And kwanbeeshi,hope you will takecare okay.I will always love you.

Jiaer,dont make stupid mistakes again okay,i will always love you.

2009-05-17T12:44:00.000-07:00

Heyoh people.This is like the overdue photo taken like last week?Haha,this is yiling(:Funny her wearing x.ahboi's jacket right!She called me just now anyway,meet up soon girl(:

Goshhhhh,now in upp serangoon lan shop luh.So bored,audi audi all the way.Must train already,or not so left out):'Boring,nowadays people are getting caught,so irratating manzx.And jiaer sister,faster meet me soon alright.Dont do foolish things anymore alright.I will always be here,although nowadays i very less meet you guys luh.But must miss me manzx,because i do miss you guys alot alot luhhhh.

World is so horrible,full of liars luh.Those who know should know who im refering to-.- Whatever,biatch

2009-05-16T02:03:00.000-07:00

The world is so damn fucking horrible.

Those who knows what is really happening,should know what im refering too.All these while i still tried my best to believe this everything.But in the end what did i get in return?Guess,only those who knows should knows how im feeling right now.Im getting fooled by a biatchhhh?Goshhh,how damn horrible this world can be luh.

Seriously,i miss all those times in bugis with my sisters.I knew that somehow maybe we wouldnt get to be as close as last time,somehow you guys thinks that this sistership is not important to me anymore,but its not.Its still as important as last time,but really maybe is my fault who dint take the intiative to hold this sistership closely.But actually,i did tried my best.I just can say im sorry to make you guys feel this way.But how your looking in this sistership right now,is not how im looking at it now.Im sorry,seriously.Alot of things to stress about already.My cases,my boy-f,my family and even my sisters.So fuked up stress ):'

How i wish im still that girl who dont have any stress,living my life happily with an innocent character.Right now,im thinking.Why everybody is changing,even myself.I only know,i want this another 4 months to faster over because seriously i miss you like damn hell.

2009-05-13T09:12:00.000-07:00

Tonnned for like dont know how many continous days.

Actually supposingly,i can visit my boy-f this monday.But dued to my counselling,But seriously i want to see you.Hope your next visit i will get to see you.I just missed you so fucking hell much..Why so coincident want,when i can get to see you everything turns out to be like that.Baby,im sorry.I seriously,still miss and love you alot..

Im seriously very stressed.Very very..Im not that old me anymore maybe.

Baby,right now its our 3rd month already..And i know we cant celebrate till only our 7th month.But im alright with it..Because i do love you alot you must know that.No matter where you are,my love never vanish and it dint even fade.Hope everything is going fine inside for you alright baby..Its not that i dont want to go see you,actually supposingly monday i can go see you want.But cause some counselling cropped up..And made me lose that fucking chance after so long.I hope the next visit i could see you,and how i wish i could see you face to face and not what tele visit..I want to see if your doing fine inside and if your alright.It must have been hard for you,imagine cannot even smoke for 6 months?But baby,although im not by your side,im outside waiting.I will go through this 6 months for you..Cannot be together,but at least just know how my heart am feeling can already alright.Not that i dint write letters to you,i did and its alot.But still,i dont know how to send to you.Babybabybabybaby..How i wish time turns back to those period when your beside me,how you cared for me seriously..There is only this two possibilities after you come out,either you will still be with me,or ..The opposite way..But i still dont mind waiting for you,iloveyou.

2009-05-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up like at one plus ?

And im seriously not in a mood...Its all my fault,isnt it ?Baby,im scared i dont have this chance to wait for you anymore .. Seriously..One more new case,and i will get charge.. And yeah,i will get charge..I dont know.. ):'

How i wish,your by my side now choudajing..

Listen to this song,it explains how i feeling right now. I already given up,i lost all these hopes already ..

我一直以來都守護在你身邊

不知你如何看得見
只好靜靜靠在一邊

你的笑容能讓我開心一整夜
好像擁有你在我生邊
讓灰暗世界變成晴天

時間已經不多
我還有話很想說
一留埋藏心中卻要如何開口

該不該繼續沉默
該不該勇敢至說
希望你回頭

不能在一起也沒關系
至少你懂我的心會在想你
那些回憶會永遠保持甜蜜

不管未來你會在哪里
我都不會忘記我愛你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比從前開心

My hopes,its vanishing

2009-05-05T02:04:00.001-07:00

And yeah i just found out something,its so disappointing..

How could it be you brother..How could it be..Its so unexpected,i dont wanna believe its you.But i cant help to suspect its you..Your ther,when im down in times.How could it be you who did all these..Disappoinments.And currypuff,bare the consequence bravely.I will be there alright,your not alone.Im happy to know you too.Yesterday,tonned at bedok reservoir with gordon,drea and blur.And then after that went to eat prata,now im waiting for my lunch!And currently,i have reached my destination weight,40 kg!Haha,so i can eat alreadys(:

Believe it or not,currypuff,its up to you.But look at the proof,dont just look at the outer covers and dont care about the inner wants.

But seriously,brother.I called you as my brother,and i dont want to know it will be you,so please.Hope it isnt you,but then..Still,sorry that i have to suspect you.Its not only one person who says so,its the statement that people did take a look at.

And oh yah,let me remind you suckers something,becarful of me??Oh yeah,becarful of me?I rather you take a look at yourself.Yeah,told that girl to beware of me and drea?You should know who you guys are,No need me to name you out,you guys sucks a big time,thats all i could say.

Baby,to me eternity it will be.Maybe to you,its different.But whats important to me now currently is if your still holding on.Those tears i shed in the night,all alone..It was not for nothing,the fears im having now nobody could understand.All i want is now inside you are doing fine,and i hope when i gets to visit you,you wouldnt look shag to me.Or not,i will be heartbreak.Love,is a matter of trust.I trust you,but hope you wouldnt disappoint me.Baby,around me.Couples are breaking.I hope,we wouldnt be like them.What you promise me,i hope you still do remember.All those sweet talks,hope its for real.Iloveyou,that endlessly.Now words could describe.Maybe,there's still a long way to go.But i want you to know,i dont mind at all.I just need you,your love and everything thats all i know.No matter how difficult,this remaining 4 months is going to be.It wont stop me from waiting for you.So stop writing all those words in the letter,saying you wont mind me finding other guys.Because,i do mind..Choudajing,i can tell you.My feeling,is not fading.Infact its getting stronger..And baby,my io asked me to go back tomorrow..And i wouldnt know whad will be happening as he found out i stopped schooling again..Why everytime when i see light growing in the dark,that dim light will go off again..I prepared myself,if i really have to face that consequence i have been thinking..I think,maybe .. Gosh,all my hopes is vanishing into thin pieces of air.Baby,remember what ever that is going to happen next i will always love you wholeheartedly..Baby,you know how much its hurting me right now..That kind of,no choice but to give up with just that bit of hope..Its breaking my heart..Shattering into super thin pieces.Baby,if really something happens..How,i really wish you could be by my side now..Really!And my sisters,dont deserve all these too..How to look at the bright side when everybody is already leaving me..

2009-05-03T02:01:00.000-07:00

Sister,as you said..You looked at my previous post.And you nearly cried when you think how much we drifted.Let me tell you this,you might think we are no more the same.But im still treating you the same way i did last time.Just that,we dint stick together anymore as we are going seperate ways.But doesnt mean going seperate ways,my heart have no you and we are drifting.You always stands that important place in me.When we have money,we share.When we have no money,we go through all those times together too.Those memories couldnt be replaced by any single thing right.Sis,thanks for your tag.I know your there,but as for waiting for my boyfriend,it takes me to myself to work hard,and i will.I know,sisters are those who will stand by me when im in difficulties,and you are one of them.I believe baby,fiona,jovin and co. will do that too.I knew,you guys might think,i dont treat you all that important anymore,but nope.In my heart,always..All of your,are seriously important.All those sweet,sour memories..All those quarrels too.I love you guys,thats all i could say sis.I love you.Maybe sometimes you guys call me,i dint pick up is either due to me sleeping,or maybe im crying dont wanna let anybody know.Because i know,to you all im that happy/cheerful peipei.Dint want to disappoint your,because i promised to be strong.But i promise,whenever you are seriously need me,i will just be there.

Sister,teoyanling.Remember whad i told you.I know you are trying your best already,even if nobody could see i can.Your effort,all your hard works..I could see,in love it takes two persons' effort to maintain everything.Trust me,maybe its all fate.If you wanna compare,its forever non-stop.Too many to compare.Always ther will be better wants,and worst wants.This is just the first some small parts of your life,there will still be harders want to go through.And i will be there for you.Its your decision,but i will be there for you to go through all these.Remember,smile more.Tomorrow still have to pei to go visit my boy-f(:So smile more,iloveyou.And sister,the outside world sometimes wouldnt be such beautiful as we think.Life,wouldnt be easy too yeahs.Hope you should know,not im aneroxic!You should know the reason why i wanna slim down!Haha,cause im seriously fat what!

2nd may-3rd may

Yesterday,went bugis to meet all sisters.Joy came fetching me with cab,how sweet she could be wasting her cab fare just to fetch me!And she even lent me 10 bucks,as she knew i dint have money.And treat me eat,because i dint eat.And then,met up with all other sisters like at around evening time.Went to street to meet sherilyn first,went for some walk.Saw familiar faces too,like deny and bee!Haha,Okay,after bugis.Went to elias,and then something made me really angry and pissed off with.But its alright cause im a forgiving person.(:Okay,after that tonned at elias like on retarded with only ivan,sherilyn and gordon.Drea went home dued to some reasons.Seriously sis,you should know why im so pissed off but of cause not at you.Overall yesterday was alright buh.In the morning,currypuff sent me to bedok,and off i accompanied him to wait for bus 854 and then i came back home to communicate with my beautiful bed(:

This is my blog,and for one more time i shall tell all those rubbish people.I have my rights to write what i want to because this is my blog.And i love to post what's happening and everything.So school,stop all these rubbish complaining what im writing on my blog..Super retarded dont you guys think so?And yeah,that day at downtown i saw some biatch..Sucha bad day seeing her=.=After i see her,that day nothing nice happening to me seriously.And as i've said,im trying my very bestttt to make my posts interesting,but so sorry i wouldnt be leaving my dearest boy-f out.Because,i miss him like tons!So sorry,opppppps.

BABY,123 more days!Ensure,my promise will not be broken.

Baby,maybe tomorrow i get to see you already!!Im so happy,but at the same time i scared i see you i will run out of words,but at least i get to see you.I seriously miss you alot,imissyou):'Hope you are still holding on to me in your deep heart,as im(:Baby,now couples are breaking off.I hope we wouldnt be the same like them,i will keep my promise.Hope you do too.

2009-05-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

Sister,tomorrow's your birthday..And we are going to celebrate it at bugis.Sister,im sorry i've got no presents for you,As im seriously very broke this whole period.But you have my heart as your great present(:Sis,thanks for your tag..Yeah,i have to stay strong.And ther's only this choice for me.But do you know is very hard,that feeling of losing everybody around you slowly one by one..That feeling so sourr):But nevermind,i have to stay strong.Still have a long time in my life to go.And definitely,i have to face more difficulties in the future.If now i couldnt stay strong,how can i overcome all those difficulties that will happen after that.No matter,whad sis i will not leave you and hope you wouldnt too(:Tomorrow's your birthday,you will be older by one year again.Thinking must be more matured already alright.And lastly,last long with kenneth(:

Everybody is leaving me,its slowly one by one.How many more will i lose?Firstly,its fionalim.Secondly,isabellim.Thirdly follow by my precious boyfriend.And then,ahpui..And soon to be my currypuff..Oh my,how miserable..

2009-04-30T23:06:00.000-07:00

29th-30th april

Look at this ivan liew zheng kang!He must be thinking about something..
-Dedication for liew zheng kang..Currypuff,25th may will be your last sentence.Remember how your eyes filled with tears infront of me and drea..Currypuff,everybody is going in,i could understand how you feel..Those everybody is leaving kind of feeling,even yourself is really sad.I could understand how stress are you..And currypuff,remember what you told me and drea..You cant bare to lose everything outside.Including us,but let me remind you..Your not losing me and drea..For sure i will wait for you!See how im waiting for my boyfriend..Although its still quite long,but im still waiting right.So i can make it to wait for you too even if you go in..And i know you very much wants me and drea to visit you if you go in.So we will yeahs!No matter whad,we will stand for you..Alwaysalways,just dont do any stupid thing anymore alright..Right now,you must be thinking you will lose everything outside,but not drea and me.Other of your friends will be waiting for you too.And before your last sentence,we go somewhere explore or eat something really nice okay!

Look at this retarded zilong and that more retarded xiaodii..Damn funny..Scroll down there are more even funnier faces!(:
Look at this alvin..He have loads of name called by xiaodrea.Firstly,i called him sponge bob..And then secondly,we call him the bread superman..And then lastly,dont know from where pop out one name for him as dinosaur!!Dinosaur is called by xiaodrea(:Haha,damn funny!

And then look at this xiaodii,he have 2 names..One called by me,the newbie monkey!And then,secondly dont know since when his name was called by drea spider!Lmao..Damn fucking funny. And then look at what this funny alvin was doing..I was not very sure whad's his doing either..And poor sherilyn and ivan,they was not even doing anything,and was shot in the picture too!Ohmy goodness..(: And finally look at this xiaodii monkey/spider!Lol..All photos are taken by drea when she is bored.So i grabbed from her blog,and put in my blog..As,i've got no pictures luh!);'

-27th april-28th april

See how liewzhengkang was eating that ice cream..So big mouth!But he is making me and drea laugh by all these actions!

See the way we were eating the ice cream..Its so delicious..Haha,the strawberry ice cream!So yummy!(:These few days tonning outside..And so yeah,not much time to post.Hmm,maybe yes..But not everyday post,well going to end this post..Stay tune readers!

2009-04-29T03:28:00.000-07:00

Hi yoh,wildwildwet day(:Damn shiok luh okay,haha.Since a long time i went there(:And look at me,im so fat right.Left hand corner(:Haha..That day wasnt a very nice day,but not so bored too.But its a tiring want..Cause 3 days dint even get a wink of sleep!And ahpui brother is currently in remand now..Hope you are okay,ivan currypuff's last court sentence,will be on 25th may..My boyfriend,he's already inside..Hope everybody will be okay.Especially my baby):'Hais,everybody is leaving me..How could i stay just strong when nobody is already there..Or maybe the next will be me,wtf is happening..Gosh,i just going burst..

2009-04-22T10:07:00.000-07:00

See how i was smiling before everything happened.See how my smiles were for real.Now,there's no more..I seriously miss you alot luh choudajing.Know everytime i see the people around me were so sweet as in sweet couples?They makes me damn jealous,why can i have you,but not that near me.Its so hurtful you know.132 more days,ensure my promises will be kept.Yes,i will wait.Definitely i will,Choudajing,the feeling is still as strong as ever.You know how much i do really miss you?Almost everyday im thinking,yeas its everyday im thinking and talking about you.I miss you,i really do.Yeah,Iloveyou and imissyou so much is the only sentence i can tell you when i can visit you buh?Yeah,it is,maybe when i see you i will be too happy till i run out of words to say.So yah,bear in mind baby.Not words can describe how im feeling right now.

2009-04-22T02:00:00.000-07:00

Its at elias,and we were damn bored luh okays.I was taking a big great look at ivan that currypuff luhs!Haha,he kept bullying me that fine day!Gosh);'Such a bullier,how can you treat vanilla like this,i dont let you make curry puff then you know!I swear elias is damn boring.And had a great arguement with drea that day.We were not even talking at all like for the whole hour and then after that its okay(:Firstly,was slacking at pasiris white sand and then walked to parsiris park,thats the place i quarrelled with drea,and then afterwards sebes was rushing us to elias,so we took cab there,and guess what it was for like 0 dollars!The uncle is a nice guy eh(:But of cause,my boyfriend will be better then him luh!(:Lmao..Okay,then reached elias,middle of the night,evan and alvin was like possessed?Damn scary,was scolded by gordan as we kept wanting to walk over to see what happened,but after that could sense something so i was sitting like at one corner till they walked over.Damn scary luh can,But hope they are okay now!(:Alright,dint slept till i reached home like at 6?And then woke up at 10.Currypuff sleeping..Omg,how can he sleep so much,when i only slept for like 3 hours?):' Saddening ley!After that,around 2 plus in the middle of night,currypuff was talking to me on msn,but i took damn long to reply.And he is so impatient till he kept nudging me,because im watching tv luh stupid currypuff!(:

See the way ivan that currypuff look at me,so i looked back in a sacarstic way!Haha

And here,he were laughing at my noob face!Sucha idiotic person he is.

And he tried to run away,but he failed to.As i pulled him back(:

He show his fuck sigh finger to me!And i was looking at it!

And finally heres the result of the best photo taken!Hahahahahahahah!@#@#$

As i've said im trying to make my post interesting,ahahhahas.But then so sorry,i still cant help to post about that papayababy im worrying about inside!I miss him like so damn muchyzxzx till ya every second im thinking of him you know?(:Im quite okay now already,but still im sad.But its alright,ko sipei you must stay strong as choudajing asked you to!I love love you(:

Baby,132 more days.Ensured my promise will not break,im waiting.

2009-04-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

Hi all people,this is the overdued pictures luh.Like taken last week?!Haha,and then its at amk and so on so on..Im lazy to post about that day luh,so yeah alright..When get yesterdays' photos i will upload it.Yesterday took tons of photos,so yeahyeah(:

Yes,yesterday tonned at parsiris,but before that im at bugis.So yeahyeah,haha!Raining cats and dogs luh.

2009-04-17T04:48:00.000-07:00

Hi people,you are currently at miss ko sipei's blog!And im trying to make my post interesting,but opps im sorry i cant help to post about my love!Because i do really miss him so muchyzxzx,and yes i do love him alot,almost everything that i do mades me thinks of him,okay fine its like everything i do reminds me of him!Our fun times spend together,and all our sweetest moments ever.Yeah,although i could visit him..But till like already how many days i still cant get to take a look at him..But yeah,i still will stay strong,hold on.I wrote many letters for him,as he wanted me to,but i heard that in a month only can like pass him 1-2 letters and he will take a long time to recieve it,because if im not wrong,they still have to scan through the letters,ohmygosh.How long can it take to let him know how i feel,everything is in those letters,okay maybe not everything because its too much for me to write it down.But at least he can see,parts of how im feeling right now..Parts and pieces of my heart is only for him,thats all i could say.My love is strong for him,yes definitely it is.Baby,you asked me to stay strong right?Hope you could be strong inside to,because you are never alone.Down my heart,a big fucking place for you baby..And all your friends are also waiting for you,your parents too!So yeah,have to stay strong alright baby!When you come out,you will get to see those strong wants waiting for you and of cause including me!(:

Tomorrow's nana birthday celebration,and right now im fuckingly hell broke..And i dont even know if i have enough money to buy anything for her..Ohmygod,but i guess most probably,i will give her my biggest hugs and kisses as her present!And some other days when im not so broke,i will than return her,her presents.I give you my bestest wishes and lets hope everything will be smooth for you!Maybe right now,we are not so close anymore but yes every part of our memories i still remember!Our funny actions together,and there's this logo for us right?!Its our small flower logo!Im happy for you that again,one year your older.And yeah nothing much to tell you,as i believe you are matured enough to think.Already like for how long i knew you right,from the start till now although we have some misunderstandings too because of a biatch,but now there's no more,not anymore yeah girl!My wish for you,is you can last long with your boy-f and our sisterships will never tear apart.Anything,i could be there for you yea!These's the birthday dedication for you sis!

Tomorrow's schedule's packed,after celebrating nana's birthday im attending chalet i think?And the same,should be at downtown again..Yesterday just went parsiris,with friends.Planned to ton there,but in the end dued to something happen,and there's no more public transport..We walked from parsiris to tampines.Sucha long distance of walking,and im super hungry after walking there,and ate this pink rice cake thing..Its damn nice with the sauce!(:But afterall,yesterday is a boring day.Spent walking that distance?Gosh,but also good.Can exercise and train my body's stamina too!(:

2009-04-17T04:12:00.000-07:00

Do you know i seriously,i do i do miss you alot baby?I have so much more to say..):'But right now,i cant face and tell you for like how many months.Its already left 137 more days,i dont know whads gonna happen in this months.But my love for you wouldnt change i knew!Have anybody ever feel how my heart is aching and breaking in pieces now..You claimed you are doing fine,hope you are seriously.Hope you can sleep well,hope you really can.My heart is breaking,is aching and its bleeding..40 plus days passed without you,im living it hard..):'Hais,baby..Imissyou just so much.

2009-04-15T01:03:00.000-07:00

FOLDING SESSION

Okay,look at the effects after me and drea having a competition of folding clothes ehs.Hmms,okay obviously the left want,is hers and the right want is mine.Big difference i know?Having training at my house to be housewife!Haha,and the drea drea was like kept throwing shirts at me to fold.Before she came,my whole room was at a mess,and after she came my room's renewed!Haha,how great right?At least i can breathe even more fresh air(:Knew why she was so good that she came up my house,cause i was forced to bring her up to take her baby's hoodie.And okay,was stucked at my house as it was already 12 plus.1st,there's no more bus for her to go home.2nd point,she took like one hour to charge her phone?3rd point,half and hour to send songs.4th point,1 hour to pack my room.5th point,half a hour to think wheather to go out of my house to take cab home as my home area is damn fucking dark and there's not even one single person in the middle of the night!Haha,but finally im so proud of her that she can go out alone to cab home(:Fantastic job girl!Yeah,and before that we went to parsiris..Damn boring there,is always the same old place luh damn!

Baby,tell me if im alone outside.139 more days to go on,how would i ever live sucha long time without you?But no worries,i can do it!As you asked me to stay strong baby!(:Tell me that im not alone,hope im not.Gosh,baby many letters i wrote for you as you asked me to!Just so miss you luh,damnit.Stay strong,hold on.Because i love you that much,the memories i ensure that i will keep it in the deepest part of my heart baby.Even if the history will repeat,i will choose to still love you..Your not alone inside,as i've already said theres always me missing you outside.Must be sneezing alot right?Yes,must be.I even dreamt of you,happy wants,sad wants.Hope after you come out,those happy dreams will come true not the sad wants!Ask me do i love you!Yes,i surely do.And its infinity,you couldnt expect me to explain how much i love you,as its unexplainable,because i've fallen deep for you!Choudajing,iloveyou.Baby,im sure you are my last,and i wanna be your last too..You will always be that biggest part of me luh stupid papaya(:Many people said,time flys..But without you,its like crawling fuking slowly luh!Without you,im just nothing.

Everybody's getting attached,although im but im alone outside without him,somehow sometimes thing isnt you work hard you can get any miracle.Its the consequences for him,but..Those who know,you should know.Yeah,everybody is together.Although i cant see you,my heart will always have you,deepest forever..Yeah,chatted with yuye on msn a few days ago.She was attached to sky,and girl last long yeah!And i will never ever forget you thats one thing for sure.Just that,im seriously overstressed about my boyfriend's stuff and i might not be that cheerful anymore until i knew that the ending will be what i wanted which is like i dont know it will be how long?Meet me soon girl,so that i can tell you what happened):'

Those who are together,treasure whad you are having now.As you might not know when this happy moments will end.Anything may happen,you wouldnt know yeah.So yeah,one thing must treasure what you are having right now before you regret and breakdown.

Overdued photos

Say hi to ivan that currypuff boy!I still remembered that day went finding him at yishun with drea,and wanted him to buy ock currypuffs for us but took a long time to eat it.Haha,ended up he was holding on like for damn long looking like a retarded!Currypuff,currypuff,currypuff!Haha!

And say hi to ahpui and bahgey too!Lol,damn funny right ahpui's face?Look like a professor luh okay!Stupid pui eh!!

2009-04-13T02:23:00.000-07:00

Im all alone.

Serioously ley,can you like just change your attitude anot?

2009-04-12T11:38:00.000-07:00

Aint a single day,im living it with how im last time.Because,i aint myself anymore after you went in.Baby,you asked me to stay strong,hope you will too.Yeah,for now this word cheerful,this word happy dint even appear in my life anymore..Everybody is getting attached around me,and i hope you guys will seriously last.And treasure your love for not regretting afterwards..And yeah,choudajing i will hold on,forever in my heart..No matter how hard its gonna be..I will just wait,Remember those days we spent together?Your presence,your love is my everything,im just a little too over you baby..

Your love,your presence is whad i need.

2009-04-12T04:02:00.000-07:00

Everybody is together,im alone outside.And your all alone inside too,baby i miss those sweet memories,do you?):'I will continue to wait,baby i love you.Its going to be our second month anni,hope you will remember.Forever love,choudajing.

Sisters,finally i have met up with you guys.And im really damn happy okay!!All of you all did alot for me,baby sis..Dont worry,i will wait for you no matter whad!I will always have you in my fucking heart.And dreadrea,i know you did alot for me too..Thanks sister,i know it may hurts you sisters to see me cry,but sometimes tears cannot be control although by crying is no use.Im sorry alright..What i promised you guys,not to cry..To be strong,i still broke down,cause seriously i do miss him..And yeah,wheres my sunshine after my heavy rain manzx.And lendl brother thanks for asking me to cheer up((:Thanks alot..And xiaoki,finnally i met you.Guoguo,i will wait for you also.Dont worry,after datou,i still have to wait for you,wait for isabel,wait for baby and shirley.I can do it de!Ahguo,i knew you knows that im stressed..I knew you could see..But i can make it!Cause im peipei..Stay strong kosipei!

Yeah thats the photo for yesterday??(:And anyway,drea thanks for posting for me!Of cause i will be there too okay.

CHOUDAJING,Do you know how much i fucking missed you?And baby i finally saw the letter you wrote..Baby,dont ever ask me to go for other guys if i found better wants in this six months.My heart is small,only can allow one love,and it will only be you..So no more others okay,dont keep say nevermind cause i will mind..Baby,i wrote manymany letters for you luh.You claimed that you are fine inside,but somehow i still very worried about you luh okay..And baby,i still dont dare to sleep alone in the night,but i can some days((:Haha,baby i love you just so much okay!Dont forget me,because i wouldnt forget you.Baby,its a life time promise.And ILOVEYOU.

2009-04-10T06:05:00.000-07:00

Have a great fucking tired day today.

Although is abit the tired luh,but good also(:Today dint get a wink of sleep,waited like all the way till afternoon then went swimming,again i became even more tanned.Haha!Hmms,today met up with sisters at bugis,ohmygosh like finally met them luh okay!Happy,at home now,i came home with ki(:Yeah,its okay girl.I could understand how you are feeling luhs!And dont get too worried alright sisters,i will be fine very soon although im seriously very stressed.Who am i,because im that peipei so yah,i will be fine after all?PERHAPS?@

And yeah,Sucha biatchhhh that made me damn pissed off,FUCK OFF

Isabel precious,where the fuck did you gooooo..Omygod,never meet me..You are good!Haha,but nevermind precious still love you!Limyunru,its okay luh.Feliciatham,for yesterday thing is okay too(;I will always love you all yeah.

2009-04-09T17:15:00.000-07:00

Tired

Back from tonning.Dint get abit of sleep,and im going to swim later i think?!Omygosh,nicolette is sleeping,and i wonder if we will get to swim later on as they are already all so asleep,omygosh.I want to swim!I want,i want,i want);'

Baby,its not goodbye..My love will only fade for you,when a fake rose dies.Dint get a chance to even close my fucking eyes luhs okays.Omygosh,fucking gosh.Such tired,hohoho.Need some nicotine to keep me awake.

2009-04-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

PISSED OFFFFFF

Everytime is like that,wont one time something different happened mehs?Think need miracle luh okay.Yesterday tonned at yishun,damn boring.But finnally see that stupid ah pui,will upload photos once drea is awake.

Had a super big quarrel just now,with my xiaobaby sister.Yeah,i understand its my fault to make you think so.But i told you everything luh sister in messages,Hope you really could understand what im trying to tell you.Hmms,and have some arguments with botak also.Brother,whad do you mean by i kept helping her?You know how gl is that person to me not?I already kept quite,now you say i keep helping her,you never think you got keep helping that certain person not ahs?

2009-04-07T05:16:00.000-07:00

Breaking down

What is happening i dont know.Yeah,i did change.So sorry,but its not what i wanted.Who will ever understand how i fucking hell feels?Nobody does right?!So yah,dont think that i want that too.Because i dont want that too.Everything is so unpredictable,and ohmygosh im fucking hell shag.Dint want to run away from all these problems too,but how could i face it and just solve everything.

Its tearing apart,trust me.And maybe,never will all of us be the same anymore again.And thought that it will be fine after a period of time,but eventually it became even worst.Sorry,think its not gonna be the same any more.Because,everything is going wrong..And its getting more wrong,it became worst.Never will the 7 of us getting the same perhaps.

Even precious said i changed,she is the one who is closest to me.Even she can feels that i changed,yea yea i know i did.But i dint think that your not so important anymore.Me myself is really very depressed..I know i did change,but am i really so not that peipei anymore?Guess maybe..

2009-04-07T02:50:00.000-07:00

And yeah,let picture say everything.. Because ,really yesterday damn suey luh okay.Im damn pissed off yesterday luh..Cause whad i wanna do,everything cannot do.Im super angry luh okay,Nevermind now im okay already!And yesterday lost half pack ciggarette.Super angry luh okay..Hmms,and anyway yesterday half way went drea's house..Then the dog,biju is damn scary,kept barking at me,super scared of her dog,and her dog cut hair,its damn cute luh okay!Hahahaha,damn funny.Today supposingly have to go school,for some programme thingy,and i dint turn up..So yah,damn irratated already.And i've been thinking whad i want for my life.Cannot be continuing this way,cause im fucking broke..So first step,i have to find a fucking job!*

2009-04-07T02:33:00.000-07:00

Hi,look at that retarded sipei!Haha,super cute right!Omygod,im being damn bhb praising myself luh okay!Haha,this photo is drea taken de.Haha!

Wanna say hi to gordan that xiaoputian?Lols,stupid gordan chenweinian.Say wanna take photos,when he looks to the screen its not nice ):' So sad oh,but when you dint look at the screen its like super nice luh okay.And then i wont forget at that jigsaw house,how did you slept!Haha,its a horrible night for you,isnt it?Haha,and yeahyeah there's many other photos,but isnt uploaded,cause usb spoiled,and then asked people to upload.And its drea who help me uploaded it!Haha

2009-04-03T03:16:00.000-07:00

Lols,look at my freaking face!Freaked me out too.Okays.the chalet i thought it will be okay,ended up to be a very -.- want.Makes me realise,sister really is use mouth say deh.Okay,nevermind..Maybe somewhere somehow you guys may think im liddat too.Sisters,if you were in my situation guess you will then understand..Im seriously stressed out okay.Thought that everything will be fine after a period of time,but things go even worst and more wrong..Sister,(xiaobaby,xiaoki)Im sorry,i knew i did changed.I promised,i will wait for your,and hope everything will be fine soon.Sisters,dint tell you guys things is not want to keep anything from you all.Is i knew you guys are stressed enough,dont want to add on burdens for you guys.And really even have to keep it to myself,and no one understands,and letting you guys thinks that i want to keep everything from you all,i dont mind.Rather stress myself then to burden anybody.Especially you two..Understands?Maybe you guys will thinks its an excuse or whatsoever,but its actually not.Seriously,its not.And can see that 2009 isnt a good year for me,guess you guys' inside is actually starting to hate me.Im sorry,but whatever you guys will think,i promise i will love you all the same no matter whad.

Everything is not going very fine,and i can feel it sis.

Im sick and tired,its enough.Im still waiting,babypapaya.Seriously,freaking sick,fucking tired.When can i ever get to see some sun after heavy rain?It takes super long only now then i know.Seriously,if really you guys could understand i will appreciate it,but as if im you all,i wont too.Hais,sisters is tearing apart,and seriously i know all problems lies to me.Im sorry,maybe one day you all left me,then you guys will feel better.Then you all wont stress over so many things.Seriously,i dont know.Its really super confusing.Who will ever understand my status now?Omygod.);'Life uh life,is so irratating.When then can i get to see sunrise from my dark skies.Or maybe never will i see anymore sunrise?!But i think i should think positive so that wont be making myself worst(:But sometimes things really turns out to be a negative want.Serious,im super shag okay.Nobody,ever understand,never ever does.

Things are not getting any better,instead everything is going worst..And yeap,there's this webside have alot of ghostly things.But forgotten,think should be www.spi.com.sg .. Haha,this is drea drea introduce me derh.She claims that she and deny is a member of the thing thing.Dont know whad is that,only know its bout ghost places and others.Lols!

Baby,without you.I dint even have one day with real laughters,without you.Everything is getting worst in me.I seriously dont wish to see all these happening,but its all fate perhaps..

2009-04-02T07:32:00.000-07:00

Did you see this boy ?Guess who is this,its deny!That stupid ah bunk!Okay tripped yesterday to bugis,it was boring but actually finnally met my sister joy!Haha,damn idiot cans.Look at this ah bunk,trying to act cute!#$% And yes,meet them went reseirvoir doing nothing ending up walking back bedok ehs.Haha,damn funny.And so tonned again,that chalet ended up to be a very not nice want..Damn not nice okay,im damn angry.Its not our fault,not karen's not sherilyn's nither is marilyn's so why do she have to pay for everything?!Gosh,can understand how you guys feel,but have you ever think about how the three of us feel?Never did you guys thought of that okay.So dont always think only about yourself,its nothing luh okay!Gosh,one day think it will be you guys' turn being accused!Just did you have whad proof to say it was us who did it?Well,god knows!

And yeah,drea i read your post.Dint know everything it will turn out to be this way,thats why in a period of short time i still cannot take it.Just like the question you asked me the other day,even give me one more chance,i will rather have the history repeating then not even having a try,because if not by doing this i wouldnt know how much love means.Sister,dint know when did we become such uncheerful.Everybody said i changed,even you.I know i did,but who will ever feel or even understands my situation now.And its because no one does..Even if history will repeat,i dint regret being together with him sis.Because,i do love him alot alot.And yeasyeas,i really fucking do.Although,im in my super duper wuber unhappy mood now,i dont care..I still will choose to be with him(:Although things may turn out to be negative/postitive,but even if everything will end in the end,i still dont care,better then not even taking it a try.And yes,everybody i know i did change.Sorry,i know many people were damn disappointed with me now..And yes i surely does understand you guys feelings..But i really dint meant to change,really.If only somebody could understand my situation..
Loving you not for anything,but you.♥

2009-03-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

Say hi to us in the swimming pool~

Haha,guess where am i?Its in the pool!(:Finally met up with dreadrea.She mia-ed for like dont know how many fcking days.And to sisters,im sorry couldnt meet your this week.As i have to celebrate velda's birthday(:Especially isabel precious..Im preparing to meet you,but phone have low batt..And tonned all the way.I promise will meet you guys by this week yeahs?!Haha,This week past very fast..Hoho,and velda ran home like around one week already??Finally yesterday she went home,budden think she not living with her mother anymore..Cause there's some arguements i think?Okay,look at the picture above..Its in x.ahboi's erzi condos' pool!Haha,after so long since i last swimm..Haha,and see the prune is beside me doing this logo thingyyy!Haha,see this swimming prune!Haha..Yeap,drea went home like earlier around 1 plus.And then around 2 plus went white sands with felicia,velda,sour prune and x.ahboi erzi..Lols!The swimming session was damn funny.The 3 guys have a swimming competition..And then the prune was the last,and he banged into people..Haha,and around 4 plus went home with prune and velda..On bus velda was sleeping,and i burnt sour prune's hair accidentally!Haha,and now he have a batch of "golden"hair dyed by kosipei(:

Look at the prune face,machiam cramped..HAHA!Look and bet you will fcking laugh like hell!(:

Anyway,saturday night.The stupid prune lent me money for movie.Its the unbornn..);'But think wasted his money..Actually wanted to watch coming soon..But so sorry,im only 15):'And then the unborn,sour prune sat beside me..The first part of the movie he is shocked.He shouted"Whoa~"Haha,But some sences,i use his cap to cover..But then he scared me with his stupid prune's voice..Lols.He this fking prune,after the show he still can say im a scardy cat when at the first part i dint even get scared,he was scared..Lols,he still dare to say what i is step one not scared want..Lols,wtffff?!Haha,he this prune..Just wants to act strong..When he isnt!Haha..And before watching movie around like 9 plus 10..Me,hanwei,velda and prune went to ljs..And hanwei is the most pathetic want..Payed like $4.50..And he only ate like not more then 2 dollars.Cause at the first place,i was the one who help-ed them ordered,and i moved almost all his fries to prune's plate!Haha,and he was stupid only realised when we sat downn..And then many funny things happened inside,made me laugh like hell..Haha,stupid hanwei!Plus ah-Gong Sour prune!Haha..They are damn funny can??Even sour prune in ljs laughed like fcuk!Lmao..I laughed till my stomach is cramped!The people who was there all like laughed at hanwei.And still got somemore crazy parts..When prune was talking on phone,hanwei wanted to take revenge.So we poured all prune's coke into three cups,and when prune finished talking he wanted to drink,he carried the cup up and he slowly feels there's nothing in the cup anymore like in a few minutes time only!Haha,damn funny if you were there..Or not i say here,some may not understand!But one word to describe,its damn funny..Haha!

Look at amos that shorty daddy! Ask what he done,its the funniest thing ever..Lols,making me laugh at himm! HAHA,was on phone with him and im laughing all the way stupid daddy!Really,imagine it yourself,dont you think its very funny?Funniest joke!(:Say hi to yourself shorty daddy!And im now currently chatting with him on msn..Haha,stupid daddy!Helloooooo(:You are the first want today made me laugh like fcking shit can..LMAO!Something is hidding from you eh,nevermind shall not force you to tell me!Lols,fcking shorty daddy!How can you scold me in tag?Im your daughter!Should teach me properly by not scolding bad words!HAHA

This friday gotta go back school for some survey thingy,which i dont know what is that.Something linked to mcys want.Wtf is that sial,scarly kena probation again..Im like stressed can..Gosh,wtf is that.Lols,whad a irratating thingggg is that..Hope every month in this 6 month will pass as fast as this week..As im really missing you like throughhhly can?!How am i suppose to be by your side when anything is happening inside..Making me feel as if im useless i cant be by your side when things comes..I really hope this 6 month faster fly,as 1 month has already fly-ed since you went in..Baby,im still missing you like fuck,and maybe can said i miss you more.And think this was a test for us..Maybe most of them will think,i will not love you as much as before.But like this kind of thing happened,i realised i loved you more..);'I miss you,choudajing.Soon our 2nd month will be coming..);'And still you are inside,hope you wouldnt forget me..Everything lies to our fate already buhs,but i can confirm i will wait..no matter whad the outcome will be.Only you,your love and everything is a reason to live on.Only you can make me laugh with my hugest laughters..Only you can make me smile,the days with you are the bestest days spent,bestest memories had ever..Baby,iloveyou.Its just 8 letters,deep down in my heart i have many things to tell you.Iloveyou,deepest love for you.

2009-03-25T18:30:00.000-07:00

Days without you,are passing slow..Passing so slow..

Okay,just tonned.And dint even get a single minute of sleep..But not very tired also,only eyes abit pain..Met up with alvin and one more dont know is who,and then slacked all the way at amk with tristan till like 3 am plus?Then walked to serangoon,and then waited for first bus to jooseng to find shirley...And velda is like already asleep?Lols,of cause im here using com as im posting..(:Velda uh velda,why are you snoring like a pigg?And you liddat sleep where the hell am i going to sleep?Haha..Nevermind,i know you are tired..Haha!

Hmms,today is like already thursday?So fast can..Tomorrow is friday already..So fast,but as i've said days without you is passing very slow to me..Though appearing fast,deep inside,how slow it is??!!How i hope,once i blink my eyes you can be right beside me adoring me like how you used to before you are inside);'I miss you so much,papayababy..How are you doing inside?Im still so worried about you,know not?Wondering if you will miss me inside,i hope you does..As i really do.Baby uh baby,very fast coming to one month you are inside.Hope you are getting used to it,tomorrow have to celebrate my dearest velda's birthday,and saturday have to pay my dearest xiaobee tarborh/brother to movie..Schedues' full alreadyy..Haha.

Choudajing,know how much im miss you right now?Hais,really hope you are doing fine and getting use inside..Hais,im always missing you like fuck can..Dint know if everything will still be the same like last time after you come out.But im still waiting,endlessly..Today is like already 26/3 already?24 days you are inside already..Baby,i miss you.So fcking hell much..Days without you,i still cant get used to it..Nothing is getting better in anyway.In fact after you went in,you asked me to be strong..Im trying my best,i thought it will be very fine soon..But till now,things are getting worst..):'But i will always rememeber what you expect me to be outside when you are inside..Trying my best kay baby..I love you,endless love..Whad is going to happen in this 6 months and after this 6 months i dont know,nobody will know.But i will still be waiting..

Anyway woke up like around 5 plus in the evening?!And now my hot pants there's a small hole at dont know where..Dots,Howhow??!And now is like already how late,by the time i go home and change,again we will be stucked at bedok luhs..Gosh,whads this manzxzx.How unluycky am i.Something's on my mind,im thinking weather are you still holding on..Or you are thinking to give up,but i hope you wouldnt,as whad you told me..To be strong,hope you will be strong too and hold on..Cause my answer to this question will be yes,i will be strong like how you want me to be,and holding on always.

Nothings getting better,im stucked..

How are you baby?
I only know,
I miss you alot.

2009-03-24T02:32:00.000-07:00

Choudajing's peipei(:

Baby,im very scared that i've got no more chance to wait for you to come out..Me myself maybe also..);'Baby,howhow??Hope nothing will happen,i only scared that they wouldnt give me anymore chance..If is that,howhow?);'Maybe...Hais,i dont know.Thursday,they will tell me whad will happen to me..Im seriously very scared..I scared if something happened to me,i will lose everything that im having now..Baby,i need youuuu..);'You stand a very important place in my heart know?But now,i also cannot do anything..Only hope that everything will be fine for me,in order for me to continue to wait for you bahs..):'Baby!Kosipei miss you alot know not?!Dont know are you getting use to life inside..Must be horrible for you,hais.I could understand how you are feeling now..Baby,imissyou alotalot..Know not?I want faster visit you..i miss all those days with you alot..Hope this 6 months can pass without any bad things happening..Baby,i got this chart to show you!!I drawed something,very funny.(:Hope i still got this chance to see you outside and when you are outside,the one with you will still be me..Baby,i miss you like alot alot.Till now,my feeling is still standing strong,hope yours too.Baby,i miss you.I love you,and lastly i need you to be by my side..BABYYYY,CHOUDAJING!Sometimes,thinking of the bad sides,the bad things that might happened,i will often break into tears..My mood is still on the breaking down side.After you went in,seems like everything bad is happening to me..And i dont know why.I only know,i pray hard that nothing will happen to me..So that at least,i still have this chance to wait for you rather then have no more hopes..And think should be mcys probation again,wtf?!GOSH,I dont want my probation life again sials.Enough of it luhs lorhs.Hais,liddat night life will gone.But teacher told me is only doing survey?!Lols,dont know whad this programme is also..Hope is not some stupid boring programme.):Anyway,at marilyn's house now..So boring,hoho.Baby,soon it will be 1 month after you went in.Time flys real fast,but to me its very slow.Anyway think i will be working soon..So might not have much time outside anymore too..Plus think i should be going to some school learn whad i want to(:Singing,here i come(:And after the first month you go in,12 days later will be our 2nd month..(:Baby,sipei is missing you dearly know not?Im waiting for you to come out,always.Baby,iloveyou.

Only the days with you,
Are the happiest moments..
I miss you dearly
Endless love.

2009-03-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

Precious,know how much i miss you?

Who will ever understand how im really feeling inside?Nobody evers.Yeahs,i knew i drifted alot from you all..Maybe you all might think that im avoiding you all when im not..But whatever that makes your think so,no matter how your might think about me,i will still love you guys like how i do..And to xiaoki,Im very sorry again this week i cant meet you..Im really very tired,and xiaobee jiejie hope you could understand not i want to dua you or whad,is i really very tired luh how to go for somemore??):'

Why is all these happening to me again?Old stories are repeating again,when will it ever end and will have no more new chapters?!Sisters,i knew maybe is i changed or whadever..Because i dont deny people will really change,But please dont ever anyhow think of whad you all told me yesterday..I dint,Why is all these happening?I know you guys are stressed,but me?Im really also very stress..Veryvery..When is all these going to end with out repeating ever again?!):Im very sad,very very..Who will ever understand,no one ever will..

Maybe what you all been thinking is not a last time me anymore..But when you are stressed,really very stressed a person could really change like dont know how..Seriously,I dint want to change too,really i dint want to change..But whad you all are thinking maybe really is abit crucait,i really still love you all like the same..But im hating myself more and more..God,save save me);'Im seriously,veryvery stress..Baby,im missing you still,very very miss you):'How long will this 6 months be?I dont know,i dont know whad will happen within this 6 months.But i know i will still love you.

Baby,are you doing fine inside?I miss you,i miss you very very much..I really need you to be by my side):' Where are you,i still cant get used to the days without you,and i dont know why):Cant adapt to it..Baby i miss you,very very much..Hais,I really miss you,and i will be wondering if you will miss me too like how im missing you,but baby i really miss you luhs..I will wait no matter whad the outcome will be):'I miss you baby,miss miss you..Choudajing,tears can only be by my side everyday,when is this miseries going to end?!Can you tell me,hais..I miss you,4 more months and plus..):'Baby,hope faster i can go visit you already..

Baby,imissyou.Please do whadever you should do inside properly,and after you do everything smoothly there,please tagging do make it pass fast fast without any troublesO: I miss you baby,never will you know how much i miss you!):After this 6 months of drc,hope you will not create anymore trouble can can?!):'I miss you,i miss you very very muchh..Baby,you never ever know how much hurts inside me..Imagine,if you were me.I seriously miss you alot,because i love you deeply..I miss you,alotalot baby.I know i will wait,so dont disappoint me okays,please please);'

And anyway,sunday met with my dearest xiaoki.3 plus i went off,to lavender??And yup,something happened,dont wish to talk about it.Stupid sour prune taborh book in camp already!Haha,no more sour prune for me to disiao already..And dreadrea see this post,call me..I got something important to tell you yeahs(:Dint get to go stjames,should said dont feel like.Some said it was quite fun,some said it was okay only(:And Pavilion,i dint go too.Its boring there luh kays..And there is super hot!I swear!

CHOUDAJING,Always be my baby.
Only one person allowed in my heart
And it will only be you,no more..

2009-03-18T08:57:00.001-07:00

Im very stress now people.Nobody will ever understand how i feel.Very stressed,and i knew my attitude is getting worst now.Because im really very stessed.To people whom i give attitude to,i hope your will understand.But if you will dislike me or what so ever i've got nothing to say.Yesterday tonned,to botak brother..Sorry i knew you will be very disappointed in me,because of whad i done yesterday..Actually i only care about how you and datou thinks.You wont know how stress am i de really.But i hope,you would not anyhow think of me,cause you are my best brother..I promise i wont do what i done yesterday again..Sorry brother.But if really you think is i never listen to advice,i really did but just that im really very stressed..Nobody will know de,but if you really will think liddat.Im sorry,

Days are passing slower by each day,im very stressed..Very very,got no mood.My attitude is really getting worser,and me myself hate it too..From the start,i knew i wasnt a good girlfriend.I really feel like giving up,because i believe you can find better girls that can give you happiness..But i really cant afford to lose you.I know im not good enough,but still i will wait for you.I really love you alot,never had i fallen so much.But i really dont know..You will have better girls for you,i really very worried about you inside.Hope everything is going fine for you..Days passed,baby days without you are really hard.And im really very stressed,i dont even know wheather will i have this chance to wait for you outside..);'Dead sipei..

Whadever it is,my heart will only allow one person.That person is you,stupid ChouDaJing..I miss you luhs,how how?I miss you very much,the letters are still in my carboard,preparing to visit luh pass you de,I miss you very much luh.);'

And to xiaobaby,jovin and drea.Thanks for being there for me always.Always is only you all three there for me,no one else.Maybe last time joy will always be there?Somehow now,i cant feel our sistership love anymore..I dont know why,when i saw you at zouk you still asked me why dint contact you anymore?!Ask yourself,where's the last time us when we always stick together..You dint contact me too,did you?!Once,we always stick together,you should know.I dont even know why now i feel weird when i see you,i dont know why..Maybe cause,we really drift.

Xiaobaby sister,i knew we drift alot..But sister,i know you are always there for me..Whenever im helpless,you are always there.Maybe like whad you say,is confirm due to your probation..And i dont want you to breach..But i promised i will wait..No matter whad,i love you.How much we will drift,till the day your probation finish,everything will be fine..But i still love you alot,i hope we could spend more time together too.I love you..

This group sisterhood will always be deep in my heart,each and every sisters inside are also locked in my deep deep heart.Although now,everything is different..But,sisters inside are still standing the same place in my heart.Xiaoki,ah guo maybe you think i have new friends i dont want you.But that day i really is go meet jovin..Guoguo,my attitude is getting worst and hope you will understand im very stress luhs.Dreadrea,thanks for being there whenever i need you.Though i seriously hate your attitude,but you are there for me always too..Anything you can just tell me okays.Xiaobee taborh,thanks for cheering me up too(:Ahpui brother thanks too(:And to xiaobee jiejie im not avoiding you,is that i really very stress i really have no mood..Im sorry,i really damn stressed nowadays.Seems to me,there isnt any day i could be happy at all..

Monday i was at jovin house,i broke down into tears and jovin was shocked..She sat down and console me..At baby house,i broke down too.Baby and karen was there consoling me too.Karen sister,although we are not so close.But i promise whenever you need help i will be there too okays.I love each and every of my sisters and brothers who were always there(:Marilyn sister,thanks for everything too..Thanks for helping me in everything all my sisters and brothers.Baby,maybe im really not good enough for you..But i know i really love you,i know definitly there are so many much more better girls around you..I dont know,seriously i want you to be happy..But i still want to hold on,because i really love you.

Anyway,Zouk wasnt really very fun.Alot of people,nearly get pushed off the stage..-.-Stupid people..Tomorrow's st james!But i dont know should i go anot,cause if i dont go,Karen have to go alone..But then if i go,i think there will be misunderstandings again..And it will make things worst,everything is going to restart and happen again..So i thinking should i go,but cannot be leave Karen alone,but then i really dont know..This zouk event is pretty disappointing,some songs are kind of weird?!And many things happened since that day,thought that it will be fun ended up so disappointing sial..Disappointed,not only in that event.In some people too,seriously how disappointing it could be sial?One day and so many things happened,What the hell is happening..

Mum bought me fish noodle just now as i havent eat anything for the whole day(:Thanks mum(:Btw,the fish noodle is not very nice..But still ate it(:Anyway,chatted on msn..With dreadrea,xiaobee tarborh..The conversation is damn funny..Stupid prune(:Stayed at home for the whole day,and just quarrelled with marilyn sister..Sister,dont you understand?!It isnt i do it on purpose de ley,and im already very stressed as you know..I ownself already alot of things to stress for,and now one more thing is happening.How the hell you want me to handle so many things at one time?!Disappoinments..Many things is happening,i cant handle it at once,who will understand??No one!Sorry if im really having attitude problem,i knew now im having but its all due to my fcking stress mood.Hope you people could understand if really couldnt then im sorry.

Just now msn-ed with the stupid shorty daddy,amos(:Haha,and i knew one secret.Tomorrow he is going to meet nicolette,maybe i going to find them!But ask-ed daddy to miss called me,in the end he dint..You are trying to be funny daddy!Stupid shorty daddy,actually asked me if going for st james tomorrow,but i got not enough money also..Same situation as this shorty daddy(:Jiayou kay daddy!

Laughing outside,
Crying & bleeding inside

2009-03-16T08:03:00.000-07:00

Nana,Mag,Jovin,Me

Picture taken on saturday i think?!Lols..

Zouk yesterday wasnt funny at all.

2009-03-14T02:39:00.000-07:00

Baby!Today is the 14th of march.Our 1st month,although we already planned what to do in our 1st month,but in the end also cant fulfill because of this terrible thing happening to you.But nevermind,hope we can do it in our 6th month when you come out(:

Every 14 will be our anniversary..Baby,i seriously miss you alot.And i love you alot(:Words it cant decribe how much my love is for you..I sent you a message,but you cant read it..What we planned to do cant fulfill in our 1st month,and really is very sad alright.Actually everything is going stable for us when just this kind of thing happened,what we planned is gone..):'Seriously very sad want can..But whad can i do?There's nothing i could do..):'This whole 1 month alot of things already happened,who knows whads going happen in this 6 months?!}:But no matter whad that happened,i will wait..I will just know i will remember you..

Baby,on valentines' day we went to och..Though there isnt a very romactic place or what so ever.When we start our relationship,the first place you hold my hand,you hug me tight is there..Though there isnt a very good place,but the first memorie we created after we was together is there..Baby,i love you endlessly..I wouldnt forget you,i will do whad i said.I dont lie..And i really love you alot baby,you wouldnt know how much i fallen for you..Baby,hope you still remember today is our 1st month..I love you,my love for you is an endless want.Never ever fallen such much.

Baby,i really hope you are doing fine inside..I wrote letters for you,just that dont know when i can get to pass it to you baby..What i want to tell you,in letters its not enough..I really want to share alot of things with you,and hope whatever i do hopefully in the future i will still be sharing with you,Seriously dont forget me kay.Everyday im still missing you deeply..Sadness,is all over me.Those memories rounding in my brain..I love you,thats all i know.

Never had i fallen
So much before..

2009-03-14T02:24:00.000-07:00

People,this is me and drea took long ago even before i knowing baby will have sucha things happened.):'And i still remembered that day im waiting for you baby):'But whats done is done,cannot change anything..Hais,):'I really dint expect something like this happened,now without anything expectations im waiting..I just know,i will wait for this 6 months no matter what.Gosh,baby i really wondering how you are doing inside..Cannot smoke right?);Must be hard for you..Baby i really miss you alot..Hope you are really doing fine,hope everything will be fine.A girl name Ko Sipei miss you alot alot..):I still could remembered everything we did together.Our names,papaya and watermelon(;Imissyou,alot alot..

See,this is the stupid sour prune with me and drea(:That stupid ass..Lols!Haha,always i disiao until he beh ta han,still can tolerate,so nice right.Haha,he fking is very funny.His holy amazing head!((:Stupid prune..Lols,and he fucking have alot of funny expressions!Lmao!Anyway,yesterday tonned at parsiris,was not very fun and was not very boring too.Just nice,but just too tired for my legs,cause really walked alot because of some irratating group of people-.-And yesterday really a horrible day siah,drea's phone get lost without anybody taking it..And its very creepy..It just disappeared in the toilet without anybody going in..And she dint even dropped it);'And my ezlink card lost too.Terrible right?!?!Because actually the ezlink to me its okay,but the picture of me and baby)):'Gosh,horrible.And after that went back bedok in the morning,till around 9 plus then reached home.So i dreamt of something made me happy which i dont feel like getting out from the dream..);'

2009-03-12T09:37:00.000-07:00

Picture of me and you.

I think my previous post is quite boring although there's alot of pictures.Lols,Because got nothing to say about.Just photos,So soon so fast tomorrow is already friday..And many days past,although it past fast,but actually deep down to me..It past very slow,as i think of what we did together,i seriously miss you..Wondering how are you,wondering if you are thinking of me.But i will still wait,and i have this confidence i can.Because i really can(:BABY!You wouldnt know how much i really miss you,because really is cannot be explained.Everything i do,reminding me of you..

Okay,Just now like 8 plus meet Da stan and Deny,they were super entertaining..Haha,marilyn's there too(:11 plus,left 75 walked to the bustop that Deny directed for stan to take 87,Im very kind enough to send them there,and in the end no 87 there?!Lols,so even by the time reached inter,Stan got no bus home,so he took cab(:And i sent Deny to take bus,accompanied him to wait for bus and then i walked home.Like 2 to 4 days dint get a good sleep,guess today the moment i close my eyes.It will take me for like dont know how many freaking hours to wake up..

And to Xiaoki,actually not called drift.This is just called meet very less..Yes will drift,but just like me and Isabel our love our sisterships stay strong,because we love each other(:And rememeber always,I will always love you dearest sisters.To drea too,dont you think im using you because im not.Thank you for your cooperation(:I love you alot derh(:Xiaobaby,actually sister what i wanna tell you is that also the same i tell Xiaoki..We may get further from each other,but remember our love wouldnt change,so does our fun memories.

You made me realise,
The definition of loving.

2009-03-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

Marilyn and me,She kept taking photos-.-

But we do look like twins right?! Haha,like every picture we take..Lols,actually on phone,it will look more the same.But,in computer..Gosh,not very..HAHA!Zouk that event is coming,two weeks is going to pass soon..And i really miss you alot,alot..

OKAY,THIS IS LIKE,The dont know how many times which i have so many photos.Because,my usb spoiled,so the stupid marilyn put in com.And i grabbed from her from her blogggg..

2009-03-09T10:33:00.000-07:00

People,saturday's picture(:Choachukang.

People,this is the saturday's tonning picture?Grabbed from Yuxuan's blog.Guess which want am i?Okay,im super lame because i already wrote my name where i am(:Haha,because you look it doesnt even look like me): Gosh,i super love kitty's bagpack!HAHA!(:Okay,went to like hmm lim chu kang cemetry once again?Lol,quite okay.But abit scary,and i swear it was the first time i saw such things at such places..LOL!Okay,nothing much anyway.And guess what,there's once,me and my baby with drea and norman went this cemetry..):'I miss him like..I dont know how definite how much i miss him..

Today its like monday?And i went home like around 11 plus?!Chatted on phone with jovin,on msn with marilyn.Just now met with marilyn,bugis.And then after that,bedok meet drea(:I saw my samantha sister again!Hoho,i miss her like supreme much!I love you sis(:Yesterday after on phone with jovin,was on phone with dreadrea.And i heard something,i dont know wheather if im thinking too much,but if im not.It will be super heartbreaking..Hope im way thinking too much like what you guys said.Like what i told drea and myself.Without trying we wouldnt know what will happen in the end.Love is always foolish,rather being the clever want not trying,i will rather be the stupid want trying all the way.Because i love you.

CHOUDAJING,How could i describe my feelings now?!Gosh,im super missing you now..Although i cant see you,my heart will always have you.Baby,the reason why im always smiling is you.Forever,my love you..Baby,wrote letters for you.Printed all our photos out,at least when i miss you,i could take a look at the pictures(:Reminding me of our memories,our times.

BABY'S LAST DAY AT CINE-01/03/09

Baby,its your last day with us at cine..Like last monday?And one week like past..):Hope could faster visit,and pass you the letter.At least you can read how i feel inside that letter,i will always rememeber and wait for you..I hope you are doing fine inside baby..Baby,I've got no confidence not in the part of me waiting for you,but the part if you will rememeber me..Baby,do you know how much i miss you?I seriously missed all the times with you.I miss all the things we did together,the times you hold and hug me tightly.):'Baby,how are you doing inside?Did you get used to it?Hais,Baby,i wonder how are you now.As im telling myself,no matter what this 6 months and after this 6 months its going to be..I will still wait no matter what i will get in the end.Baby,i will be strong like what you tell me.Perhaps,this is really the test for our relationship..Baby,i miss you,i miss you so much.I miss those times so much too,every action you do i remembered);Those times..Those memories..):'As love is always foolish,i will rather be one.Jovin,Drea,Joyce.Thanks to these people who were there for me,and many other more.Jovin,both of us thinks the same way of what is happening now.Driftings are normal,just depending on how far may drift.It will always happen.Thanks for always being there when im sad.Thanks alot,i love you.To drea,joyce thanks alot too.

To me,love is always foolish.
Never try never know,
Thats what you told me.
5 more months,2 weeks and 6 days.

2009-03-04T10:01:00.000-08:00

Baby,your the reason why im smiling..

This is the photo xiaoki snapshoted for us.Haha,still remembered,that day me and ki was at my baby's shop for the whole day.Haha,the song when you look me in the eyes.Was the song for that whole day.Baby,i will wait for you.6 months,im getting better now people.6 months,think it will fly fast,i love you very much baby.Hope you are doing fine inside baby,i will always be outside waiting for you,Baby,this picture reminds us of xiao ki eh(:Baby,hope you are doing fine inside,im just worried about you wheather you are doing fine inside.Yes,now i felt so weird without you,but i have to adapt to it,just for 6 months!Hopefully,after you come out we will see ourselve celebrating our 6 months anniversary..(:Baby,iloveyou manymany..Really hope you will be doing fine inside baby..Its like four days already?And i believe for 6 months,it will be fast too..I will try my best to wait for you happily outside yeahs.Hope after you come out,our love will still be sweet like before..Baby,i love you..Many many,and infinity it is(:Forever my only love,Choudajing.No matter where you are,no matter how you are..I will still love you,i promise.

And baby,4 Days passed already.

Baby,4 days passed.And im still missing you like how im..Whatever i do,still reminds me of you..I miss your messages,I miss everything we do together..Last but not least,i miss you baby..Papaya,watermelon will wait.No matter how long,how hard this 6 months is going to be,I will still wait..Baby,because i love you.

Baby,i dont know how to describe how much i love you.Because,i know i love you very much,and its infinity.Words couldnt describe how much i love you,Seriously i just love you many many..Thats what i can say,iloveyou.And,Because of you,i believe true love exist(:

And currently,im waiting for the maple private server thing to download.Anyway,just now talked on phone with Dreadrea,We was like doing some family chart?Lols,was damn funny.Haha,and she this teoyanling is like sleeping now?Lol,that stupid girl..All due to her,i have to wait for the thing to download,and was like downloading it for like already 3 hours?And it haven even reach a half of it,when isiit going to be okays?Gosh,for goodness!&Im chatting with my samantha sister on msn now(;I miss her like fcuking much,since a long time i have met her and slack with her at 79?That day was with marilyn when i saw her(:Stupid sister!Imissyou loads.Haha,You are watching your show now,and im like waiting for the thing to download?Gosh,eyes closing very very soon..):'And although,i dont know how much we sisters had drifted.But what i know is no matter how far apart we now is,or for the future.The memories we made,the fun and laughters will always be there no matter what.Seriously,this whole period im super shag.So if i have any attitude,im sorry guys.

Meiling,haha.Thanks(:And,i relinked already..(:
Sherilyn,Lols okaysokays.
Huimin,Haha alrights(:
Joyi,replied at your blog(:
Xiaodrea..Lols,whad stupid sister?

Baby,imissyou,iloveyou.

2009-03-03T00:16:00.000-08:00

Baby..you went in already):

Baby,i know by words you wont believe that i will wait.Because its 6 months.But,baby i will wait for you.Im just scared that after you come out you will forget me.):Baby,i miss you alot.):But i swear no matter what will happen,i will wait.2 weeks can visit you one time!At least i can still see you every 2 week..Baby,i dont care what will happen in this six months,i dont care if after this six months you will forget me not,i will still wait..Baby,iloveyouveryvery much..6 monthhsssssss!!One day just passed like that,i believe 6 months will fly fast,thats what i can tell myself now..Baby,i promise i will wait,i know only actions can proof everything,so i will proof to you derhs.Im really very worried about you inside,Hais,wondering how are you..):'

Seriously,loads of things happening.I already broked down,dont think i am the sipei anymore bahs.Hais,baby i really very scared after six months you will forget me..I really dont know..Hais,all i know is i will surely wait for you..Im seriously very sad,very very sad..hais.No

longer im the sipei anymore..Broken down,shattered heart..

And anyway,to that lame passerbby,love is not about apearance..or how he is la.No matter what or how he is,i will still love him de can.Dont come comment people,when you dont know anything about what you are commenting,you will end up be talking rubbish luhs.

And,some other bitch is going,got what rights to say my sister siol.-.-

And to some lame passer by,i dont care wheather my boyfriend will love me like how much i love him anot,i will still love him.I will do whatever i can,i will try my best to do whatever i can in this relationship,no matter what.Thats all,whatever it is.Whatever you people say,i wouldnt get affected,thats it.

2009-03-01T14:37:00.000-08:00

whose going?((:

HAHA,anyway somebody is goinggggg.
LOL,that bitch is going.
Like whad joy told me,still have the cheek to ask her if she is going.
-.- But i dont know who to buy ticket frommm,and i dont even know if im going(:
Joey sis asked me to go,because she miss me?!
Really?must be miss me alot right?!Hoho,confirm is miss me alot(:
And thanks for teaching me how to do some blogging stuffs.
Seriously,friendster and blogger/Biatch!Lols..and btw,another bitch is going-.-shes sucha fckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr(:

Grrrhhrrr,9 more hours}:and followed by 6 more months):

2009-02-28T06:12:00.000-08:00

Hello readers(:This is my boyfriend and me,And yes i do love him very very much.So 6 months i will be waiting for you.Drc is a fcuking place):' Baby,6 monthhss..Cannot forget me okay.Iloveyouveryverymuch.

2009-02-26T13:13:00.000-08:00

Totally shattered.

Baby,yes its hard for me to accept the facts,But still i have to accept the facts right?Yes,i have to.I will rather myself accepting the facts and treasure this left of 3 days with you.6 months,its not 6 days nor 6 seconds.Its months without you,but what i worried about its you inside):Things always turned out to be the want i dint want it to be..Thats life,so i have to learn to accept.Baby,i will wait.

Esc,playing audition.(:Anyway,just now baby came meet me(:

Took photos,will upload soon(: Baby,i promise i will wait(:Akiko's bbq whose going?I told her i will be going,but now im not very sure girl(:I will try my very best okays.Happy birthday girl!(:

Anyway,friendster is fcuking biatcchhhhh-.-
Bugggsssssss???Gosh,fed up.

2009-02-26T01:13:00.000-08:00

Heartbreaking news.

Heartbreaked,depressed.Baby,my baby papaya.I thought nothing will happen to you,yet something horrible like that happened.Unfair..Hais,Baby,Drc,what is this?Stupid fcuking Drug republic center.Baby,6 months!6 months without you,baby..):Heartbreaking down..Hais,why is all these happening?):Baby,i dont want this kind of things to happen.Hais,Why all these kind of things must happen..Hais,Depressed.Baby,6 months without you,our 1st month you are inside..Hais):What is all these?):

And people,due to blog changed,links are lost.Tag me with your link after i put my tagboard(:

2009-02-25T03:08:00.000-08:00

Indulging miseries.Very hearbreaking.

Yesterday,bedok..Baby came find me and drea with norman.Not a very good day,felt he was cold.But he said ask me dont think so much..Forget it,after that at macs,talked with dreadrea sister.I told her how i felt.Girl,not because i want you to feel guilty,i wanted to tell you how i feel just because its keeping me very long.Sister,follow your heart,thats' my advice.Changed my song list,it needs time to renew.So readers,listen(:hope everything will be fine through times.Drea sis,dont make me feels guilty,i aint want you to do this.Follow your heart,i want you to be happy. Super paranoid nowadays,and i dont know why.If i will be giving attitude,im sorry..Im very shag and moody this few days.Hearkbreaking,shattering into pieces.Im seriously very sad,very moody. So many things happened to me and you,i dont know whats going on.Going on like this,i think i will see both of us ending everything soon.I really hope,as time goes everything will be fine.I dint know,and im not sure what had happend,what took place,all i know is everything is like changing. Everything is fine at first,perhaps at first both of us thought wrongly or maybe just only me..Everything is not going right now..Maybe,i really had the wrong thinking for our love,Im sorry baby.I dint meant to make you feel how you are feeling.Its just that..All i could say is i dint meant to.One more time,just one more time for everything to go back to the normal i will try my best to hold everything rightly.Im feeling very sad,you are serving your ns soon,and going on like that,i think it will be worst after you go in ns.I dont know whats going wrong.Im very sad..):Thanks to those who were there for me,for those advices i will think through it..And secondly,because my dearest isabel you are very important to me very much.So i shall reply your tag here.yeah,you should be honoured(:Yeahs,i miss you very much too.Time is flying fast,but slow without you.Everything had changed after you went in.You should come out and see for yourself how much everything had changed.And i think im transfering to Bedok View(:The same school both of us planned to transfer.Girl,are you going okay inside?Hope you are.I will always be here waiting for you,Dont worry.One more month is passing again,just a few more months and i will be waiting girl(:

Baobeisteph,Sister,yeahyeahs.Loveyou.
Weixin,alright i will relink soon alright,lovesloves.
Jovin,sis im not very alright still.But,dont worry alright.Love you.
Xinyan,lols alrights.
Passerby,norh the other passerby told you(:

2009-02-23T08:05:00.000-08:00

Paranoid.

Paranoid with whats on my mind now.Seriously,im super duper wuber no mood alright.Whats on my mind now i dont even understand it myself.Maybe yes i do,there are many people asking me to trust,and telling me in love trust is very important.Yeah,of cause i know trust is very important in love,but cause of my previous pasts,im having a phobia.Although,i know i should try my best not to think so much,but even though thats the case,sometimes i finally brought myself to think of the positive ways and it turns out to be the negatve want.Life is always like that in times.Getting super paranoid with love,but still i love you alot alright(:Maybe like what many people told me,im thinking too much,but maybe its not.I dont know,but all i know is i will try my very best in this relationship,Thats it.When i was in my super down mood,my dearest jovin and drea was there for me,Joy,Fiona too.(:When i dint know whad to said,baby&Jovin was there.Thanks for all these things kay,maybe dint have much consoles,but there are advices.Thanks sisters,all of you all are very important to me.Even though,how much i dint get about whad you all said,at least when im alone,i can think of whad all of you all told me.Really very pleased to have such sisters.Thanks for everything in all these while,im thankful.

Anyway,talked about yesterday.It wasnt a good day,because the same thing happened,i have no mood.Always because of the same thing,im tired.Yesterday went with drea and co. to yishun to find ahpui.After awhile,chocolate and group came.I miss her like fcuk luhs!Eeshi came after that too.Was a boring/shag day but at the same time it was quite like fun.In the morning,something cropped up,Me&Drea,Ahpui&co. went up to Eeshi sushi house"(:Me,Drea is in the procedure of plan "B" for Fel.Haha,it was damn funny.The stupid sushi face was like damn entertaining!Haha,in the end plan "B" still dint succeed.So poor me&drea went home from yishun like around 11/12 plus.When we reached bedok it was like 1 plus in the afternoon close to 2.Imagaine,never had a single sleep for the whole day,Reached home,i couldnt sleep due to somethings.Hais,finally dued to not enough sleep.I fell asleep(:So now,im posting here.Yesterday at yishun overall was quite fun,but maybe dued to my mood?It dint seems so fun,Fun but with shag mood perhaps?(: Messaging with that stupid sushi now,he calling me wasabi(:Cool names right?!Haha,anyway when im sad just now,he was there trying to cheer me up too,thanks sushi(:And right!I remembered something,yesterday when at his house,Dreadrea and me was helping him to put on eyeliner,eye shimmering&"Someone's"Fake eye lash,those who are awake still at that time,was all laughing away including me.Stupid Sushi,i think you can go join mediacorp!Can act in funny shows,Lol.Yesterday he was the one making me and drea laughing all the way!Haha(:
Sometimes,life are unfair.Things turns out to be worst when everything i going alright for me in a sudden.Everytime things like this happen...Nobody will ever feel how im feeling right now.This feeling is very horrible..

Anyway,people who tagged my blog,i replied you all' tags at my previous post people(:Im feeling better now?I think so(:Thanks to those people who had been consoling me(:

2009-02-22T01:28:00.000-08:00

Saturday was a excellent day alright.Lol,met up with fionalim.I miss her so much,and next week cannot be meeting her cause of some of her programes talk.Anyway,I love you alot.I dont know why i will sms you all those.Maybe because i was too afraid of losing.}:Its okay yesterday you cant console me,i just need you to be there{:Anyway only met up with her for awhile,and then off jovin,joy&me went down to bugis.Alright,yesterday only saw baby for awhile}};I miss him dearly.But nevermind{:Met baby and co. at bugis yesterday.Yesterday was not in a very good mood for the whole shaggy day,so sorry sisters if im appearing very quite.I dint have much mood yesterday,dint have the mood for everything but just wish to stay out,and have someone close with me.Anyway,till now im still very not in a mood.}:

Yesterday did tonning with many people.And the stupid tarborh damn funny alright.He have a cute small head which when he was sleeping i was exploring it all the way.His small head was the only thing yesterday that made me for awhile dint feel so moody{;And yesterday,is the first time i went in red house.It was okay,but not scarrier then the och,and the punggol want.

My current mood is damn moody.You dint message me,and suddenly i felt you are so cold}:Idk'} Seems to be like,good things always cant stay for long.\L/And girl,very obvious you are avoiding me.Forget it,its up to you.Hais,but just to say im already very stress,i need you.But since you are trying not to meet or see me,its alright.Takecare'

Dreadrea,this post dedicated to you.Let me say for the last time my sisters dint think bad about you on anything.But if seriously you want to avoid me,i have nothing to say.But i need you when im sad,dint know why suddenly you like that.You like changed lorhs.Aiyah,i dont know luhs.Its up to you,i had tried my best to explain to you,but seems to me you still dint think about it.}:

Clara,love you too{:
Mayying,linked.
Aikiko,of cause remember{:
Pb,im not sure.{:Really?Thanks(:
Jovin,sister.Idk}:But thanks for being there when im so sad{:
Yumiko,alright.I gave you my msn already{:

2009-02-19T22:52:00.000-08:00

Hello people,isnt this lg phone attractive?!?!Yeahyeah,and yes i get attracted by this lg phone(white).(: Though i just changed my phone not long ago,but seriously too tempting{:Lmao.

Yesterday tonned at bedok central,a boring and unhappy day.Quarelled with baby yesterday,anyway now we are okay,so im not going to talk about what happened also,No point. Yesterday shirley was there too,long time since i last tonned with her.Though yesterday wasnt a very nice day,but still sis thanks for comming all the way to bedok to accompany me through the night{:Rofl.Transferring school maybe?Cannot tolerate anymore in this school,they were seriously too biaus and they were always picking on me and some other of my schoolmates,so decided if want to continue my studies,im not going to go back to that school too(:And anyway,before night time joy sis met me.She was still the same,always engrossed in the television while eating her pig organ soup.Lmao,and then whoever who wants to talk to her while she's doing that,i will kindly advice you not to(; When she's watching television,her ears' attention will only be at the television(:Alright,i cut my fringe.):How sad right,my long and straight fringe gone):But i dint cut it too short also(:Anyway,tomorow's saturday.And,its Xiaoki/Fionalimyunru's homeleave again,Yes finally its another saturday girl!(:

2009-02-18T04:46:00.001-08:00

-Valentines' pics

This pics taken from jovin's blog{:As already i've said usb cable spoiled.{:Yesterday planned to have a trip to sentosa,in the end dint went}}:Yesterday met up with my baby{:,xiaodrea,norman.Alson&his gf tagged along for awhile and then off they go.So after that,went limchukang cemetry,gosh seriously im not going there again.I wanted so much for cab to come,but ended up around 6 police care went by for like in 15 mins?Gosh,maybe because jurong hq is just nearby{:After that,limchukang cemetry trip was not so nice,as there have alot of mosquitos.}}:Baby also kena bite,but drea dint{:After cemetry,went to baby's block downstair the guys were sleeping,so me and drea went to 7eleven and bought something for them to eat{: After eating,went up to baby's house.The guys so good life,slept on the bed.Me&Drea slept on the big matress{:Hoho.Around 4 plus in the afternoon woke up,and went meeting vivien,and then to lotwan,off i came home{:

Okay,on the bus with drea were seriously funny.There's this 3 china people,sat behind me and drea.They were talking about vegetable buns,soccer,aeroeplane?!Lols,weirdoos.You will think they are really bunch of weirdos if you heard how they were describing what they were talking about.Lols,and there's this bangala combing his hair in a funny way.Lol,kay i know im lame.But seriously,its funny!{:

Take note readers,my posts will be boring,due to no picktures.{:As,usb cable,spoiled.I very much want to blog,but i have no pictures to make my post interesting,so i shall just post with boring post{:Actually i dont know whad am i talking.Hoho!Im effing bored alright..Meeting my dearest joy at 5.30,and 8 to meet drea{:

Take note,people if you want to explore limchukang cemetry,i will advice you to go with bikers,or with people who have cars there{:Because,there as i've said.Super hard to hire cabs alright!-.-

Felicia meimei,alrights{:
Kitty,alrights.Love you too.
Joey.s,alrights{:
Billy,lols trying to be funny uhs you{:
Sockching,rouwan alrights{:Dont keep pon school yeah,go study{:
Love you too.

2009-02-15T21:55:00.001-08:00

People,look out for the next event{:

15th MARCH

ROMP4@ZOUK & PHUTURE
9pm-4am
Then, the ultimate time of our lives,
the whole reason why everyone is there..
DANCE LIKE YOU'VE NEVER BEFORE!
Phuture; TRANCE for the shufflers,
Zouk; RNB & Hiphop for everybody else!

Anybody want go with me?{: This event,dont think im going to miss!
Who going?Text me{:

-Xiaobaby,Joy,Xiaoki,Jovin,Baobeisteph.

I love all of your supreme much.My baby sister especially imissyou.Hope you wont think that im drifting from you cause of your probation.And hope that you wouldnt think that i have new sisters,i wouldnt want you guys.Because,deep down no matter how much new memories,new funs can take place,it will never ever replace those memories,those fun times with you,and many other sisters.Dearest sisters,iloveyouall.

-Xiaobee jiejie.

Its a long time since we last met,though many things changed.And i felt you changed too,but please dont do stupid things anymore luhs.Please,please.I dont know if you were listen to me,but at least dont do all those things.Loves.

-Starboy brother

Oh,dearest brother,you said you wanna treat me something before you go in,serious?Haha,i want pizza hut,fish&co,swensens and many moreeeeeee}}:Haha,but as you said only choose one,but im so greedy![:Nevermind,i shall just choose one inside which i wanted to have the most{:Thanks yoh brother!Remember to takecare of yourself when you are in ns ohh!

Anyway,sorry readers.
Due to usb cable spoiled
&computer laack of my photos.
No photos uploaded,
will upload once i've got my new cable{:

Bye readers{:

2009-02-15T07:31:00.000-08:00

-Post for Valentine'day{:

So sorry,due to my usb cable have some problems,no photos i took on valentine day is able to upload.Stephanie came up my house to wait for me this princess to prepare,{{:After that,went to meet jovin at block 220a.(:And then walked to find xiaoki,my keai de ahguo at block 10.Slacked with his brothers and all at there awhile,off we went to tampines,actually supposingly to catch a movie,but so sad.Valentine day,watching movie is a too-popular event for couples{:So,there and we meet joy and munchong.Me,joy&jovin shared money and bought a hellokitty pillow for our dearest sister/xiaoki{:Well,surprisingly,this is the first thing i bought for her which was her favourite,after knowing her so many years.Yes,i admitted we did drift alot.Deep down,you are still inside my deep heart,which no matter how far you swim,you cant reach yourself{:Okay,went vivo after that and parted with xiaoki.{:I miss you,and i love you!♥♥Alrights,vivo and somethings happened,dont wish to talk about it.At vivo,i saw my creative earpiece which i long wanted to buy.&Both my dearest sisters,joy&jovin borrowed me money even though they left just very less.I knew,they knows that i long wanted that earpiece,so seeing me wanting it so much,they gave up on what they wanted to buy and lends me the money to buy what i wanted{:Sisters,i knew you guys just want me happy.I promised,i will return it very soon alright.Sisters,iloveyou{:Around 10 plus,left with jovin,parted at the first train,and i continued my trip to ochard.Waited for drea like until i shouted at her,im sorry girl.Because seriously you made me waited for very long}}:After that,went down fareast,Xiaoahboy,Xiaobee and all was there.The stupid sourprune taborh,his face damn funny can!Laugh,alright.Och after that,Xiaoahboy and other girls,never come.{:Drea and Xiaobee that group all came!After that,the stupid papaya'baby,normun and alson came down find us.{:The trip was damn tiring,not to talk about it{:The alson took photo before we came out,and yup.I dont have that photo{:But he dont want let me see too,and the photo thing thhing came out with something{:And papaya,my baby was damn sweet,bought me a necklace for valentine,thanks baby!{:Whatever you buy,i will like yeahs?And i will also wear,dont worry.Iloveyou(:So after coming out of och,bugis with normun,dreadrea and papaya'baby{:Went to 4th floor,slept for awhile,morning time around 9 went home.

And to Dreadrea,seriously hope you could accept my brother,he is really a very nice guy.{:Try to understand him more alright.{:

Baby,iloveyou♥
And i love you very much{:
♥♥

2009-02-12T17:14:00.000-08:00

-Lonely valentines.Counting down.

1 more day,& valentines comming.
Valentines the sweetest day ever for the couples[:
Single people of cause can enjoy it with friends too{:
And i guess,should be celebrating it with friends,yuppyupps{:

Long enough,everything will be over.
Valentines will be alone again.
To all couples,happy advanced valentines' day.[:
Nothing much,but sisters can spend valentine together too!{:
Who will be kind enough to spend it with me?
Anybody?{;

Just 1 more day,awwwwwws.
Valentine,where to go?}:
Nowhere maybe at home!{:

Anyway,readers.
Yesterday did tonning at the papaya's house again{:
He was super funny alrights!
Want to know about any funny happenings?
Come ask me if you know me{:
Just to remind myself bout it,im not tonning today.
As,tomoroe's valentine{:

Sense of drifting,unknown feeling.
I miss the times,the memories.
Forever it will be,deep down my bestest sisters.
No matter how much new memories will be created,
Old wants,not being forgotten.

2009-02-12T01:37:00.000-08:00

-No more expectations,no more hopes

-Valentine's coming,a lonely want this year{:

Today,think going with drea drea to meet marilyn and people?Hmms,i dont know,should be going bugis{;Anyway,yesterday slept alot.In the middle of night,went out with my real sister to east coast area to have dessert.The dessert there were thumbs up!Super nice,making me feel like having another want.I have the mango&pamelo thing for my supper{:Its nice and mangorish alright!That was the first time i went there.And i swear there will going to be many and many times[:

Sisters,i dont know why i have this unknown feeling,think partly is because of me,so i cant say anything about we sisters drifting,but no matter what as i have repeated alot of times.You all will always be my bestest sisters{:

-Xiaobaby,

Sister,dint because of your probation,we drifted.I think maybe its my fault,i agreed i spent more time with dreadrea they all now,but no matter what,you guys are still my bestest sisters no matter how close i can get with them,memories cannot be erased,our love too.Sister,its not cause of your probation,maybe the problem really lies with me dear.But,i really dint because of them,i wont want your,serious.}:Sister,im sorry}:very soorry}:But,this sentence you can remember,no matter how much time,how many memories i get to have with them,you,fiona,steph,joy and bee wouldnt be forgotten,always will be deep down my heart.

I love you alls.Deep down inside my heart,is forever.

2009-02-08T02:47:00.001-08:00

-Always be there

XIAOKI/FIONALIMYUNRU,

This whole post is for you.8 more months,i will be waiting.Seriously,im very touched after you told me all those words yesterday.Thanks for everything,although whenever you are sad,i couldnt console you as i dont know how to.But,one thing i can confirm,let me be there whenever you are sad,I will be there to spare you a pair of listening ears.Everything had been changing since the day you went in.Not just a lil bit of changes,its alot of changes.Its not i want to keep things from you,its just i dont know how to phrase it out,hope you dont think wrong.]:I feel very miserable for these things too]:Whenever i wanna just pour everything out,i couldnt,not cannot is i dont know how to.I trust you alot,so hope you should know not i dont wanna say it out,its seriously i dont know how to describe how miserable im feeling right not.]]:8 months,can say its fast,can say times like this flys slow.But,one thing i can confirm,i will be outside waiting for you without you worrying for me,i will be independent outside,i give you my words.(:So dont worry for me alr alright?I know you already have alot of things inside you,dont wanna you have more burdens.You are a close sister of mine,though we spent lesser times now,one thing im sure no matter how people might change,no matter if we will change anot,i will always be waiting for you,always be there for you whenever you need me.Though,you couldnt be there for me always now due to hostel,but then i wouldnt blame you.8 more months,both of us can be there for each other like the past agains(:

-XIAOBABY,JOY,

i knew we drift alot,sorry sisters.]:

-10/02/09

Hi,flower/sister.Although sometimes your voice could get quite loud like dont know you had swollen how many speakers,but i still love you dearly{:You stupid asssy!(:Anyway,just now in the night went met this stupid speaker girl,papaya&normunnn{:Haha,they make me and this speaker run like two idiots like that!Hmmmmpphh,they damn funny can.Okay luh,fun not say very fun.Boring also not very boring{:Stupiddoppiddddd,later this fcking speaker going bunk.Dont know if im tagging along anot.If have,see you later.If never,then too bad.Off your speaker for today{:

-pictures,took that day before going clubbing{:

This were thee pictures taken with sisters that day when we was going for clubbing/max pavilion{:As i said,fun but at the same time bored,all the way was RNB.For other things that happened,scroll down to look for the post about that day's clubbing{:

-X.drea,alrights{:Loves

-Your mother,-.-Continue spamming[:No life peopleeeeeeeee,continue to live without any life![[:Continue spamming(:

-BABY SISTER,i miss you so much too.Anything,i will be there too[:
Because,iloveyou{:

-Passerby,actually i also dont know ayes[:

-Kitty,Linked my dear(:

-Xiaodrea,alrights.You shudup asshole!(:

&so all tags replied}

2009-02-07T09:19:00.000-08:00

-Only got old photos uploaded
Yesterday clubbing,was okay luhs.But abit bored,all the way RnB.Laughs,Regretted wearing heels there,now my leg is filled with blisterssssssss}:Goshhhhhhhh manzx.Okay,today met my dearest baby sis at bugis,i love you sister{:After that,she went home first,because she feels uncomfortable,and waited for fiona to come down,gosh ahguo i love you,you took cab to find meeeeeeee{:I loveeee you alots,anyway heard those words you told me,im seriously very touched{:Now,waiting for you dear,nope i mean should be waiting for that fattieasss}}:

Ahguo not meeting me le,but i want ahguuuoooooooo}:Ahguoooooooooooo}:Ahguooooooooooooooo}:
Nevermind,MORNING!{:

2009-02-05T06:16:00.000-08:00

-Nothing much.

Nothing much bout today,woke up at 6plus almost 7[:Yupp,i know im a pig.But,too bad im tired so i dont really care[[:Haha,on the phone with my cuteecutee jovin sis just now.She is cute,but irratating/#@Both at the same time[;Haha,talking to her made me laughed all the way.Entertaining bodohhzxzx[[:Now,im thinking what to wear tomorow to clubbbbbb]]:Dots, still have to stress over this kind of thingggy!]]:Haaha, seriously got no idea what should i wear tomorow!Hohohos,tomorow going with jovin&joy.Only the 3 of us?Hope,it wont be too boring!Lols,anyone tell me,tomorows' event is at Chinatown OR Expo?{:Thank you very muchyy :D

-To,xiaobaby sis.Sister,just to let you know i dint go my own way,im sorry for letting you disappoint in me,letting you felt i went my own fay,the fact is i dint.I knew,you wont think what i say is what im doing.I know you are very disappointed in me.But,what i can say is,no matter whatever that will happen,you guys are still my bestest sisters.

2009-02-03T10:36:00.000-08:00

-Blog Dead for so many days]:

Long time since i last posted.Shall only talk about Sat&Sun.Saturday tonned at Steph house with Isabel.She guailan-ed with jiahui on my phone.Was super funny,those who is interested with the conversation[Funny]Hohos.Sunday,there it went.Met Fiona at bedok.Actually was suppose to do somthing together,but only can get it by night time,when Fiona&Isabel is going back.Lols,so did it only with Steph at bugis.

Steph,sister.I swear i love you alot.[:So,10 plus steph went home.Tonned with botak and co. with Xiaodrea.Laugh,in the middle of night,something happened,shall not talk about it.Morning,cabbed home,as i have to meet with the fcuk principle.-.-What i want to write in my blog is my own fcuk freedom kays.You people who go complain to teachers,read this.My blog,my freedom,my choice=.-Go ahead and tell teachers what i wrote here-.-Stupid bitches.

Monday,slept for a few hours.Down to bugis at night,haha.I swear my stupid botak brother is damn cute!Haha,miss yoh so much can.So long dint see you,stupid brother!Hohos,so off to esc.Everybody is playing dota-.-Left us girls alone,sitting at one corner.Goshhhhhhhhhhzxzx!]: Same routine again!Laughs.Tired,Maybe geting withdrawed from school again.Really wanted to study hard,but because of some fcuking complain bitches.=.-I swear,you girls are super lame luh.

Monday tonnedtonned.Again,middle of night something happened again,This time is at Yishun.Nevermind,Hmmmszxzxzx/@#$%Tonnedtonned,morning the stupid papaya uncle send me home.Laugh!Thats all for Sunday,tonning is seriously getting boring,not going to ton often after this.]:Haiyoooozx.

Woke up at around 7 plus?Lol,im a pig.Sleep so long all the way/@#$Laughhhhzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzx.Super angry nowww.Grrhrrrrrsssszxzxzxzx!

-FionaLim,Xiaobaby,Joy.

Imissyouzxzxzxzxalllzxzxzxzx]]]:Grrhrrrrrs,i miss the times we spent together.Sorry,if im not a good sister/]:I miss all of you all.Everything had changed since school starts.I hope everything will seriously be fine after everything.]:I hope all of you all is still doing fine yeahs?I miss all of yourrrr]:Seriously,i miss all those memories.I missssssssss you all so loads,so tons.But still,we are drifting,hope everything will still be the same]:No matter what,you all are still my best sisters.[:

2009-01-27T23:41:00.000-08:00

-Utterly Disappointed

29/01/09,Today is a horrible thursday,which let me see this world thorougly.Alright,Woke up at around 10am in the morning,met Sockching,Yixin&Myfan,more.Well,how i hope today i dint heard all those things.It totally spoiled my fxuking mood.Off to Socky;s house after that,Played with her doggie{:It was super cute kays!And,after that,went dearest Yixin house.Played with her biggy piano[:So funnnnnnzxzx can?!Okays,8 plus cabbed home,now posting[:Nothing much bout today,but with Socky&Yixin,Fuuuuunnnnzzx[:

Well,seriously utterly disappointed thats all,No need to change stories about me,and come telling me you are saying the facts,please."Dont come near me"Thats what you go around telling people,Oh,if thats the case,you dont come near me then,i dont care what you tell other people isiit the facts,ask yourself if you still have your assy lil heart.[:Fck off,if you think i forces people to do this and that,when the person said she ownself wants&I fcukingly hell dont force people to do things,Childish lil acts saying "FAKE" things behind-.-Not happy with me,just come confront me,dont anyhow say rubbish-.-Or,if you really are very unhappy,Come&I will wait.No need,me to name who you out,you know who you are.

-In a fcuking terrible/sucky school

Well,today woke up as perusual,as Isabel precious called me.She came my house to look for me first,as she reached earlier.Today is a terrible fcuking day.Fetched Isabel to school,decided not to go school.So,came back home.Alrights/Of cause as usual,heard naggingssszxzx.I go school,also sit inside their so called rtc,doing nothing there@Blowing the stupid fcuking aircon?!like whad the hell okays.I thought very long before i decide not to go.So,stayed at home.Watched tv and all.Stupid school called just now saying that actually tomoroe i could go back.But whad happen is,On Friday i have to go see the idiotic principle..As,they said that people complains that i smoke last thursday when i pon the last lesson.Alright,to people who complain&to you teachers.Well,whad fcuking proof you guys have that i smoked after school?!That day,i even forgotten to bring my ciggarette,how the hell did i get ciggarette to smoke?!You guys means that,i go smoke grass issiit?Yeahyeah,whadever.People say what,you teachers listen,meaning a girl who have long hair is your mother isiit?!Fcuking fed-up with this school,but still i have to tolerate with this kind of fcuking things.And,further on.That fine thursday,i only stayed with Socky&Isabel till 2.45,and than i went to Lavender to collect my renew-ed passport with my mum okays!So whad fcuking proof do you guys have for me smoking?A stupid eye-witness?!Or,you teachers see you own.Well,please dont do things made people feel you teachers are biase.Well,you guys Are!-.-As,a teacher/you guys only hear what people say bout another student,and than you guys believe?!Yeah,whatever luh kays!-.-Let me tell you people,that fcuking Thursday,After school,I Ko Sipei,dint even breathe in a single puff of cigga after school until i reached home luhs!Stupid Asses.-.-

Love was all a lie,
a trap for me to fall
A lie for me to believe,越爱越难过

2009-01-26T03:03:00.000-08:00

-Monday's tonning

As I've said,came back from malaysia.Was rotting at home actually,and wanted to sleep.But ended up,meeting Xiaodrea&Alicia.Ohhhhhhhs,i love them so much{:Met them at punggol park around 11?My sister's friend drived me there.They were nice,aint they?:D Alright,from punggol park,it was dark/And as i dint got there for a fcuking long time.So yeah,talk-ed on phone while on the way walking to meet with them.And,they seriously were cute.They mistooken me as a resident there bring-ing a dog outttttttt D:Got so jialat not?!Haha,After meeting them,walked from Punggol park,to Rivervale Plaza for macs.After eating,cab-bed down to East coast to meet with Xiaobee(the guy want)He paid for our cab fare.Reached east coast,Meiling phon-ed me,Surprisingly,she is comming to East coast to do something too{:Slack-ed with Xiaodrea,Alicia and co..Met up with Meiling awhile,she gave me someeeeeee!{:Only,we know whad is that kays!{:Hoho,thanks dear{;At first got nothing,end up actually also not alot of thingthing,just felt very giddy.Luckily,got Drea&Alicia there!Haha,felt super giddy for around 1/2 hour.Walked out of toilet,the bicycle below was already there-.-

Positions we sit,was like above.Alicia,ride on Xiaodan's bike.Woohhooooo,here we go.Journey to Xiaobee's chalet.The stupid idiot keep complaining he very tired,kept complaing i very heavy.I did help you to ride okay!Wtfffff?!Hmmmphs,nevermind.Alright,when i said i know im very fat,still dare to tell me"Fat is fat,Heavy is heavy"-.-Yeahhhyeahhh,your right!So slacked at the playground outside his chalet,have heart-to-heart talks with Drea&Alicia.Last time,there were misunderstandings,but now i swear there will be no more.After knowing them more,i feel they were nice people,Really nice wants/!So,played poker cards with Xiaobee&Xiaodan.They were damn funny!In the morning,dont know what the hell was with Drea,She suddenly goes crazy kept laughing,After awhile/I join in the crazyness also!Because,really it was funny.Go look at Drea's blog,if you readers wanna know why we were laughing!Haha,or you can come ask me if you know me{:Slacked till 7 plus,Off we goooooooooo!Bid farewell with the both of them at inter. Hope to meet up with your very soon again yeahs?!Haha,ilovethebothofyouuuuu{:

Whatever!tomoroe have to wake up early.Go back for sucky schoooool suspension!-.-

-Chinese new year;

Sunday,new year eve.Tripped to malaysia with family to my malaysia side,relatives' house{:Though its kampong,day there were boring.But somehow,i think it was quite a great trip.As actually,gained angbao{:Hohos,but there were alot of lil,baby cousins.Noisy,but cute.{:Slept around like 2/3 plus;Ate alot at malaysia,things there are seriously so nice,eat non-stop.The only bad thing bout' going there is,cannot smoke!Amazing right?!I managed to tolerate for one day without any nicotine{:Woke up at around 8 plus,dued to those lil'babies noises.Of cause,also due to,those relatives waking up so early to put bian pao!Seriously,damn noisy!Ate breakfast,got back to sleep around 9?!Woke up at 10.40 again.Around 1pm ate steamboat{:Kind of a big family reunion dinner{:Ate so much okay!Was the first want to eat,Last want to stop!Haha,so was so full till i almost cannot bring my-self to walk!So,if i know i ate too much,whad will i do?!I carry a lil'baby,not so as a baby.A small child,5 yrs old{:Carry her walking here and there,Jumpppi-ng her on my hand,so i need to waste alot of energy yeahs?!Form of excercise after eating so much{:Bid goodbye to them at around 2plus/2nd uncle drived us to the boat place?Dont know how to phrase,so sorry{:reached the boat place at around 3.10 went on boat,Off we go journey back to singapore,my countrytown!(:Reached Singapore at 4 plus/5.Called Isabel precious,but sadly she,fiona&co. was at geylang,Seriously,too tired to go till there,im sorry guys}:Back home here,posting[:Actually,alot more of photos.But,Aku Ko Sipei is lazy to upload{:/Will upload it slowly in other posts{:

Around 1pm ate steamboat{:Kind of a big family reunion dinner{:Ate so much okay!Was the first want to eat,Last want to stop!Haha,so was so full till i almost cannot bring my-self to walk!So,if i know i ate too much,whad will i do?!I carry a lil'baby,not so as a baby.A small child,5 yrs old{:Carry her walking here and there,Jumpppi-ng her on my hand,so i need to waste alot of energy yeahs?!Form of excercise after eating so much{:Bid goodbye to them at around 2plus/2nd uncle drived us to the boat place?Dont know how to phrase,so sorry{:reached the boat place at around 3.10 went on boat,Off we go journey back to singapore,my countrytown!(:Reached Singapore at 4 plus/5.Called Isabel precious,but sadly she,fiona&co. was at geylang,Seriously,too tired to go till there,im sorry guys}:Back home here,posting[:Actually,alot more of photos.But,Aku Ko Sipei is lazy to upload{:/Will upload it slowly in other posts{:

-Saturday,

met fiona ahguo first.Than,went down to bugis with stephanie along.Both of them are seriously cute.Fiona,iloveyou{:Sorry that,today[26/01/09] i came back from malaysia,i cant meet the both of you{Isabel}So sorry,im really damn tired.Tomoroe,i will be meeting your anyway.If joy could make it,joy will be tagging along too perhaps?!Hohos.Back to saturday series,met up with sisters again.Bugis street,bought a yellow silk kimono,as the green is not very nice.Thanks to Ehkia&Joy for accompanying me buy{:Mos burger,X.bee&group played a show series,where i lost my phone-.-/Want to know what happen?Ask me!Haha,they are seriously CUTE huh?Lols!Anyway,Ahguo!You hit my breast so hard,will tio lai siong de leis!Haha,iloveyou{:After that,fusion.Isabel precious came,8 plus cabbed back to hometown bedok with Fiona&Isabel.And the day ended like this{:

Bye,readers.I gotta go{:

2009-01-23T01:54:00.000-08:00

-Suspended

Feeling,damn shagggggggggg&stresssssssssss

Skipped lesson,actually will not get caught.But dued to some big mouth go complain to teachers,today ended up whole day in the stupid rtc of our school!}:So cold,and somemore still can ask us to wait till Mrs joseph to come,ended up cannot find her.So the rtc teacher let us off!Hoho,but ending going off at around 5?!Okay,getting suspended,so i cannot go out today.Disappointing,planing to go bugis,but nevermind.As i go back to school,sisters.Sorry if i cant meet your that often like last time i used to meet your everyweek.Dued to school}:So irratating okay!Disappointing,today cannot go out.Nevermind,shall meet you sisters tomorrow kay{:And i cant ton also dued to going back school]:Time flys fast anyway,so nevermind.Shall wait for one day,i shall ton together with my sisters again![[:Anyway,only decide to upload one photo for todayzx{:Today was a boring day,went home alone.Socky and yixin dint manage to wait for me till i end,as i ended very late,But nevermind,i dint blame you guys!Muacks,love you all luhs{:Sisters,Hope your could really understand why i couldnt meet your often anymore,Kays.Muackkks.

Here,i go.Bye readers{:

2009-01-22T04:01:00.000-08:00

-Not clinging on,

Hello,people!Say cheese to me in school uniform.School days,look at my big eye bags};'Since started going back school,my eye bags are coming]:Seriously huge eye bags right?Today went to school with usual cliques in school.Nearly late kay!-.-So irratating,the teachers in school is always picking on me,my attire and everything.Sometimes,its obvious to see,just beside me there is one person beside me who is worst than me,i mean her attire.-.-Not only attire,hair and everything is messier than me,the teacher just always catch me,not that want-.-Okay,whatever-.-Just tolerate for another 2 years!Ass manzx.Always getting caught,when there others who are worst dint' get caught.But nevermind,as i've said,bear for the two more years.This kind of fcuking thing,will end[:Seriously,im always stonning in class as i really feel boreddzxzx?!!?!No nice teachers' teaching my class,Irratated.Seriously,turned off!

Stupid face of mine again! still have even more photos,but lazy to upload all/So next time than i upload[:

Okay,continue with school story series[:Hmms,today while i was having history lessons/i almost doze off!Lmao,and P.E today ran alot of rounds,5 rounds in total.As i just came back to school,dint run for a long time.So i think to me,5 rounds its already alot{:Anyway,after P.E was recess,went with serene[:She is a sec 2 girl,and defintely she is a nice girl.[:Hohos,maths lesson was resting my head on the desk for awhile,which is really a super small while[:,I woke up and started listen to what teacher is going through,Luckily,i did half of her homework/But its an incomplete want.{{:At least,i made the effort to do okay!Rofl.Anyway i skipped my assembly today[:As,seriously they are wasting my time for assembly,not worth it'This is what i think{:So i skipped assembly!And went out of school with isabel&socky!Went for a smoke after that,sent isabel to take bus.Waited for myfan with socky,to lavender meet mum and took my passport.Came back around 6,bought my new battery!Hooray,thanks mummy[:

Bye readers,im going off now!:}